Wheee.......

Okee...i hoped that everyone had enjoyed their holiday! More to come yar.. juz 5 more days and it'll be the begining of another new year! Time passes soOooOo fast yar?

For the poly people~..Please rmb to study k! Lolz.

For those still having hols.. enjoy while u can! = P

Take care everyone...

xoxo Ei Leen xoxo

The sweetest friendship picture...= )

My My....

Ok. This is freaky.

I've experienced this not once but twice.

I remembered that a few months ago, i wanted to blog about my frustrations as i have juz quarrelled with my mom. I blogged, i vented my frustrations and clicked publish blog. But guess what, the whole computer hanged on me! I had to restart my comp. But by the time my windows loaded up, i felt that it's a waste of time to reblog again since i've already 'written' out or 'got the frustrations' out of my system. It's like i wasn't meant to blog that entry. Or that entry wasn't meant to be shown. *weird*

Ok..The 2nd time happened 2 days ago. I kinda had a misunderstanding with Robz and er...i wanted to blog about my sadness, anger and blahblahblah. But guess what, i couldn't even load the damn internet explorer. In the end, i couldn't blog at all. I wanted to go microsoft word to actually type it out and save it later then load it up. But...isn't that gonna so troublesome? Since i'm gonna badmouth about someone and myself. Then i thought, what the heck...go and sleep.

Noww......realising this, i think i might either have a guardian angel beside me, so that i won't blog rubbish or blog something about someone that's totally innocent. Prevent me from misunderstanding someone or something... Or maybe God's watching over me so that i won't do something stupid and cause more misunderstandings. Coming to think of it, i wonder what'll happen if i really blogged those 2 entries... About my mum, about my kare. Maybe it'll not make me realise that i was partly to blame for what happened like what i now actually realised. Oh well, if nobody gets what i mean, never mind. What really matters is that nobody gets hurt after any bad entries. Right, Guardian angel?

I've gone mad.

xoxo Ei Leen xoxo

That damn IDIOTA!

Where's INTEGRITY when i need it the most?!

xoxo Ei Leen xoxo

I'm back... Heh heh

Okee..After weeks of being MIA. I'm back! Juz came back from Malacca on Sunday. Went for a weekend break at my uncle's resort. Unfortunately, i was kinda having a flu on friday. And on Sat, it flared up and erm... i kinda suffered there. Using up boxes of tissues and got my nose really swollen. = P

Was really busy for the past weeks cuz of Tennis IVP. Yay! We won! Heh heh. But next year, Rita will be gone and DIE! I'm the only year 3 for the girls team. Jia lat. But hope that new members will come in from the year 1s. = )

Both guys and girls won. Yeaaaa!!~ Haha... = )

My FYP is a lil' screwed up. Trying to do some damage control so...... I apologize if my behaviour is a little erratic or unforgivable for the next 2 weeks. Sorry. I ask for everybody's understanding.

PAM!!! We'll get through this yar? *Prays* ....Real hard...

xoxo Ei Leen xoxo

*Sigh

Nono... Saying that all unchanging things are boring is not true. Sometimes things or people need to retain a little bit ( or maybe alot) of the old flavour in order to identify that it is still itself. I mean, you can expect people to change 100% just because you think he or she doesn't excite or appeal to you now right?

Haiyah...don't know lar.

I hate to adapt to new environments.

xoxo Ei Leen xoxo

Changes

Changes are inevitable.

xoxo Ei Leen xoxo

!@#$%^**(*^#

ARGHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I want to vent my anger. I just can't stand it.
ARRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!

#!$@%@#^%&^%$%&^#^&$%^#$$%^Y$%^%^%$%~!$$%#^&^%

Why does it seem like he doesn't understand me anymore?! He made me more angry by asking me WHY!! ARGH! Idiota!!

WHY WHY WHY?! I want to know why i'm feeling this way too!..............

Maybe i hate changes. But why must things change?! Why can't it be the same all the time?! Why do people have to change? Why do some people have to go back on their words?! Why can't i just remain 17 all the time?!

WHY!?

I hate change.

xoxo Ei Leen xoxo

Sheesh.....!

I broke down in Kallang Tennis court today. I sound like a crybaby. But i couldn't help it. Was psychoing myself not to let emotions take over me but... the tears just spilled. The guys were bullying me. Thought i was used to it after 1 1/2 years...but still, it took an effect plus i wasn't playing that well today.... So.... Yea.... Haiz....

The girls team is pathetic. There's only 2 girls.

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Anyway... The ride home was horrendous!*Horrors and horrors!!* So many lightnings! And i mean ..... Damn scary lightnings. Can even see the streaks!... Horrors! There were so many of them. Don't even feel safe in the interchange..... Thunders were damn loud too... Argh.. Where is he when i need him?

.........

xoxo Ei Leen xoxo

An eye opening day.... Maybe only a lil'....

Okee... interesting day. Ok, night. It was an interesting night.

Robz and Jensen came over. Robz recently joined a company.... You can say he's a -learninginprogress- marketing agent. Lolz. Well, the only reason i let him join is that he'll be learning a skill, which of course, is marketing. Pssst! Btw... I hate marketers. Maybe it's because i lack a sweet tongue, that's why i'm jealous of them, i guess. But somehow, i just don't have a good impression of them. Yar..... Anyway, had them over so that Robz could have a chance to practise to present the product to my family. But.... He failed. Terribly, in my opinion. *Sorry kare. But that's what i think. Yea... Maybe you can interact well with strangers but somehow can't relate well with strangers.

This whole thing reminded me about myself about 1 1/2 years ago when i went for a interview for a position as a Dental Assistant. Hello?! My parents used to nag at me to brush my teeth, don't eat so much sweets. Used to bluff the school nurse that i have my own dentist to skip dental appointments blahblahblah. Okeee....i fear the dentist. So now what? Be a dental nurse? Lolz. But still i decided to try it out with the encouragements of my parents and aunt. Go, they said. Try it out. Learn more skills and how to interact with customers blahblah. Learn to have a boss. Hey! I really enjoyed working there! I've learnt so much things that i could never learn from the textbooks.

Like how to multi-task. I must learn to assist the dentist, hand him instruments, prepare the procedures in operations while answering phonecalls or even handle a patient that's waiting for his/her appointment outside. Hey! I lost so much weight while i was there! Think about 4 kg. Cuz i've to run round the clinic, handle suppliers, take stock, wash instruments, take appointments, be aware of fussy or impatient patients, blahblahblah. It was really great! I learnt so much! And i'm surprised that i actually enjoyed the experience.

So... As for Robz. I hope that he's not in it just for the money but also for the things that he'll eventually learn. Like how to handle different customers, how to handle crisis and must remember to do homework! Homework as in... know the product until like it's your own palm. When i was a dental nurse, i MUST know my facts very well. I must know what happens to gums and teeth when this happens or when that happens. Cuz you'll never know what the customer or patient will ask. Trust me, people do ask the weirdest questions. Basically, i must know about 85% of what the dentist learnt in medical school. Lol. So.... For Robz, maybe he has to know the scientific basis of the product blahblahblah... basically, know the product until like you're the one who invented it. You must also learn how to convince or assure your customer blahblah... The presentation and the overalls. The way to handle different kind of questions... Most importantly, you must be versatile. Able to think damn fast and shoot damn fast answers. Yea... It's definitely a damn good skill to learn. Definitely a damn difficult skill to master too. I totally agree that it's very difficult to be versatile and learn how to handle different kinds of situation, cuz you'll never know what kind of people you're gonna meet. So we must learn the different kind of approaches on how to placate or assure or convince a person.

Anyway..... Tonight just reminded me of how i stepped into the real world 1 1/2 years ago. I've seen the ugly side and of cuz, the nice side of the real world. I definitely did learn something out of the 6 months when i worked at the clinic. I hope Robz will learn something out of this experience too.

I'm exhausted.

xoxo Ei Leen xoxo

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Only left a week!

I need to pass my Final Theory. Wish me luck.

Will meet Nicholas since he's going off to Australia ( I think) for army training. Guess it'll be a goodbye lunch.

Hopefully can spend more time with Robz before holiday ends. I hope to eat my Pepper Lunch soon. Lolz. = P

And my Sushi buffet. Heh heh. Must really lose weight when school reopens. Haha...= P

Hope to see everyone real soon when school reopens!

xoxo Ei Leen xoxo

My damn packed day...

Oof! *plonks onto the computer chair*

Yesterday took a toll on me. Woke up at 2am to paste 3 Salopas tapes on my right calf cuz it was cramping. Wore the retainers to sleep last night. Wah.. gave me such great headaches, hence my grouchy mood.

Sorry Kare. Was a little bad mood yesterday.

Now my mood is even worse than ever. STUPID IDIOTIC KOR. WHY YOU GO OFF THE INTERNET CONNECTION?!?! REALLY SUCH AN IDIOTA! Now my IS class is at 1pm. HAPPY?! ARGH... It's only 8 plus in the morning and my mood is like...argh! already....

Sorry kare... for whining at you just now. Sorry...i know it's like 8am in the morning. But i can't help it. I hope u get the classes that you want later at 10am. Sorry... See lar. Stupid Ei Leen. Make the people around you suffer too. Haiz.

Haiz.

Met Pammie, YX and alicia yesterday for lunchie! Had Carl's Jr. Truthfully, i ate until my jaws hurt. Had Double western bacon cheeseburger. It was really delicious! The size of the burger was like the size of Alicia's head! It's a layer of of streaky bacons, 2 beef patties and 1 layer of onion rings. Ooo... everybody should know that i dun take onions. But the rings were.... REALLY nice. Haha...= P So every mouthful only consisted of maybe bread and onion rings or bread and beef patties. Cuz my mouth couldn't fit the whole mouthful of burger... if u get what i mean. Went to Candie Empire at millenia walk. Din know there's this shop there. Must take Robz there sometime soon. Was fascinated with the assortment of candies they have there. I just wanted to have everything! Unfortunately, most of it contain nuts! Argh... I love nuts! But i can't have them. It's juz too bad.

Went Pacific Coffee and yak and yak and yakkkkkkk for like 3 hrs plus. *Girls can really talk huh? But most of it was updating ourselves about one another since we rarly see one another and have a good chat. But am glad to catch up with the girls. Have this nice warm feeling. Hope we'll do it again sometime at Yx's house or something. = )

Met Robz at night for dinner at ToriQ. Was a little upset cuz i thought i could have met him earlier.... But nvm. It's over. Still managed to meet him at least. Will spend the day later with him anyways. Really regretted that i screamed ( didn't really screamed but whined, i guess) at him just now. Sorry dear. Sowwieeee....

Haiz....

xoxo Ei Leen xoxo

My apologies...

Internet was down for 5 days. So couldn't update my blog even though i'm so free at home.

Hmm.. Met Alicia and Yx on wed for some get together. Glad to see them after such a long time. Met Von and Celeste in the night. I've rejected both groups of girls to eat PepperLunch becuz of somebody. And both groups responded the same way. Haha... Hey! I've to curb my own saliva from dripping too k! Though i'm so tempted to eat it there and then, i've to resist! All becuz of somebody. Haiz... That somebody better appreciate it. Hmpf~!

But glad to see them after such a long time.

Yay~! Took my braces off! Hehheh... But need to polish... the colour abit... off...Lolz...

xoxo Ei Leen xoxo

Hmmm...

Finally managed to watch The Notebook yesterday. Bought the dvd like..... 1 1/2 years ago? Was super touched by the story. Though i've read the book before and kind of knew what the story was about, but in less than 30 mins into the show, i was moved to tears. = P

I absolutely love Nicholas Sparks books. I know i know. They're love stories. But somehow, every story showed a different kind of love. ( I still read a range of books k. Ranging from mysteries, action, thriller, romance, -idunnowhatgenreisDanBrown'sbooksunder- to detective stories). As long as it has a good storyline, i won't mind reading it. = )

Hmm.. The movie was really touching. Showed me how reality clashed with everthing. Well, it is kind of true that parents mind the status of the other person's family that you're gonna marry into. I mean, for example. For a girl, the parents would actually be quite concern over the bf's job and how much he's making. Would he be able to support her and stuffs. True... But sometimes, i feel that people have to look past the materialistic world. Sometimes, money and status is really not everything. Yea...initially it would matter, in the eyes of relatives and would you be able to proudly show off your other partner. I mean, it is kind of embarrassing if people ask what your partner does for a living, and you reply, ' In the environment business'. But in reality, he may be a garang guni or rubbish collector or something. Or worse, the girl is actually holding a higher post than the guy and she's actually bringing home the bigger piece of bread. Parents of the girl must be thinking -- why is my daughter suffering? She should be the one who's being pampered!

But i guess in this new century... People are much more open minded. Some people believe that love conquers all... blahblahblah. But i guess everyone has to be rational in making such choices. We must think of the future, the consequences of our actions, what we, ourselves actually want and not what others like parents, relatives want. Cuz ultimately, the choice is yours. And we must be responsible for the full brunt of consequences that may happen. If you think the other party is able to make you feel like your natural self, no pretending no faking expressions or feelings, able to make you feel whole and complete, yea.. i guess that's the one. If hanging out with him or her makes you feel trapped, incomplete, faked, and always compromising your happiness, i guess there's no happy ending. Cuz one day, you'll realise that you need freedom.. You'll need to be free and express your true self. Maybe by then, it'll be too late to return. Cuz you'll only live once. So people! Please make rational choices! Lolz...

Well, the movie reminded me of Robz. Muz get him to watch the show. Haha.. That's a difficult task. The movie made me remember the times i've spent with him. Ahh~~...those precious memories. Learnt so much from him, gone through so much. But no regrets! Treasure him lots.... = ) Geez... Even inspired me to message him at 4am to thank him for being with me even though i'm such a b**** sometimes. = P Haha... But i'm really glad to have him by my side.......

He keeps me warm!!!

Sorry for being so sappy... Lolz.. Blame the female hormones...

xoxo Ei Leen xoxo

Sigh~....

In a blink of an eye, holidays are ending soon... Left about 3 weeks more. = (

But i'm quite happy on how i spent my holidays. I've learnt how to manage my time well between my family, Kare and well...maybe not my friends. But i'm trying! I still have a date with Alicia and Xia. Maybe swimming or dinner... Suppose to meet Celeste, Lynette, Von and Liyana... but some couldn't make it. So it was cancelled. Hope we can still arrange a time to get together. Really miss all of them. *Sigh*

Well, at least i managed to spend quality time with my dear mum. Really enjoyed the time spent with her. I really did enjoy her company. = ) We didn't have to do much. Just ate lunch, tea snacks together, shopping... going to her favourite shops, trying clothes and stuffs. It was actually quite... comforting, i would say. Why? Becuz i think i feel that i'm much closer to her now after that dramatic episode. Though sometimes there're disagreements, but hey, who said life was without ups and downs? She's still my mum after all.. Love ya, Mummy! *Heeee* = D

Kare! We still have so much to do together! So much things to complete before holiday ends. Thanx for the soft toys! Was really a great surprise! You really pulled off tricks very well! Still can't believe that you tricked me into that movie stall and test my reactions for the Nightmare Before Xmas toys! *hUmpf* No fair. I'll get back at ya! U'll see!~

But still.... Happy 1 year! 1 year~! Love the memories! Love the 1st day actions and reactions. Haha~... Cute!~ *mUackz*

Okee.. Now for the serious stuffs. Got back results. I'm reallllllllllly disappointed in my results. But the weird thing is, i did better in the subjects that i thought i would do badly. Maybe i concentrated too much in those subjects and compromised my performance in the subjects that i thought i would surely do well in. Maths!!! Argh!!! Can't believe that i got a B for it. Damn those Stats! Argh..... GPA dropped but still quite satisfied with it.

**Hey classmates! Thought of which IS class to enrole in? I've no opinion cuz all choices seem quite blah to me. Lolz... Inform me about the choices before enrolement date k! Please? = )

Oh ya~! Tournament. Erm...... Let's be humble about it. Hm.. I would say I'm satisfied by how i played that day. Robz said i played well. Though my opponent noticed my weak forehand and slightly stronger backhand, I still waited for my chances and went for winner shots at the appropriate time. I was quite amazed that it worked! Haha... I guess patience and smart playing is really important in tennis. But at least i'd learnt something out of the match. I knew what i needed to work on, which is to chalk up on my match play experience. I need to learn how to manage the big points. My building up is good. But i need to work on how to close the point. Hey! At least i know my groundstrokes aren't that bad after all! Heh heh. I was serving okay that night. Only 1 double fault. Return of serves was good! Smacked some angle shots. Opponent couldn't reach some. Amazing huh? Most winners are forehand winners. Even more miraculous huh? Lolz... Considering how wobbly my forehand is. Haha... It's weird. But i really enjoyed the match. Learnt so much. Can't wait to play tennis now. Haha....= P Must get ready for IVP in mid Nov. Sylvia!!! Where are u?!!?

K.. enough for 1 night.

Hope to see everyone soon!~

xoxo Ei Leen xoxo

uh oh..

Super worried. Super nervous.

Positive thinking... Positive thinking... Positive thinking... Positive thinking...

xoxo Ei Leen xoxo

I'm Freeeeeeeee~~~!!!

Yea.. I'm free.. Free from exams. At least for about 2 months anyway. = ) It's been a long time since i've blogged. I mean, don't blame ME.. Blame the damn difficult modules i have to take during year 2. Exam was done quite smoothly. I mean, err... i'm quite happy with how i did for the papers. Except for AMB i guess. The notes are really useless lo. I think they should rewrite the notes for AMB. I mean, 60% of what came out for the paper is not found in the notes. Then how would we, the students know how to answer when we don't even know what was it about? Okeeee... Maybe i'm exaggerating, but hey? It's feedback right? I still think they should improve on the AMB notes.

Holidays are here! My goals for this holiday are

1. To go for driving lessons and hope to get my license soon
2. Play well in my tournament
3. Spend more time with Mum
4. Spend more time with Robz
5. Read more books!

My papa only allows me to drive HIS car if i get a license from UBI. Yes. In other words, i cannot drive his car if i graduate from AMK, or bukit batok, or some other places. Why? Because the most skilful drivers come from Ubi. Lolz. Why? Because of the traffic and the roads at Ubi. Lolz. Haiz. He's restricting me lo... But hey, i would rather be a more skilful driver yar? But i still can't imagine myself DRIVING. I mean, the car is so biggggg... And the driver's seat is at the right hand side. The biggest fear i guess would be i can't judge the left hand side. Why can't they just invent cars with a central driver seat? So that the driver can estimate the EQUAL space of the left and right hand side?

Am reading Dan Brown's Angels and Demons currently. His books are so... extraordinary! Really enjoy reading his books. Read The Da Vinci Code already. Which made me think that Dan Brown's really creative! I mean, it's really quite a feat to link everything together. It's really a highly recommended book. Yea, like what Robz said, it's something like a pagan's book, but hey. I really think there's no harm reading any kind of book. If it's interesting and keeps sucking me into the book, then it IS a good book. When i read Angels and Demons, it really kind of enlightened me. For those of you whom already read the book, i don't think you guys really took notice on this 1 and 1/2 pages. i'm gonna repeat it here cuz i really think it touched a raw nerve in me.

Chartrand (Ch): A security guard, Camerlengo (C): Right hand man for the Pope

Ch asked C, 'The Bible describes God as a omnipotent and benevolent deity.'

* Omnipotent- benevolent means God is all powerful and well-being.

But Ch says there's a contradiction because if God is powerful AND well being, then why would there be pain, sufferings, human tragedies, sickness.. etc. Human tragedy seems like proof that God cannot be powerful and well being at the same time. If He loves us and has the POWER to change our situation, He would prevent our pain, wouldn't He?

C frowned, 'Would He?'

Ch says,' Well, if He loves us, He can protect us. He would have to. It seems He is either omnipotent and uncaring, or benevolent and powerless to help.'

*Ahh.. this is the part were it gets enlightening. I admit, this is one question that's been bugging me about Him, and i never would have thought that my answer would be answered by this book. Lolz.

Camerlengo asked,' Do you have children?'

C said no. C says, ' Imagine you have an 8 yr old boy, would you love him?

'Yeaaa.. Of cuz.'

'Would you do everything in your power to prevent pain in his life?'

'Of cuz.'

'Would you let him skateboard?'

*Haha, this question surprised me. Imagine a camerlengo asking a security guard this question. Lolz... it cracks me up...= D

'Yea, i guess. Sure, i'd let him. But i'd tell him to be careful.'

'So as this child's father, you would give him good, basic advice and then let him go and make his own mistakes?'

'I wouldn't run behind him and mollycuddle him, if that's what you mean.'

'But what if he fell and skinned his knee?'

'Then he would have to learn to be more careful.'

' o, although you have the POWER to interfere and prevent your child's pain, you would choose to show your love by letting him learn his own lessons?'

'Of cuz, pain is part of growing up. It's how we learn.'

'Exactly.'

So... what dayya all think? Cool eh? It's so simple yet has such a deep meaning. By this time, i was thinking. Hey! God is kinda Great eh? Well... Ok. He IS Great. Lolz. He's like a parent to us all and we're his children. He loves us. I mean, hey. If we didn't have exams, how would we know to treasure our holidays? Yeayeayea, now i know how precious holidays are to me. Haha... Yea well. I guess if we didn't fall down and skinned our knees, we'll never know how pain felt like and we'll never know how to be careful. Reflect on this.

Hmm... Yup. So i guess everyone should at least read 1 Dan Brown's book. Lol. I sound like i'm marketing his books. But noooo, maybe we can all learn something from his books. I know i know. Some of u guys are not allowed to read these kind of books. But hey, i really really think there's no harm in reading it. It's just a book. Papers filled with words. Isn't it like reading textbooks?

Ohoh.. There's another thing that bugs me... No offence k! Really no offence!!! I don't wanna get in trouble with the law yea?

Err.. Those Christians, Catholics and Muslims right? For those that are studying science..... Won't you all be learning about evolution and all these contradicting subjects that contradicts the Bible and the .... er... Islam religion?

Eh....i don't knoww........It's just a harmless question.....

I miss Robz........ Why must he goooooooooooo!??!?!?!

Argh... Miss him lots...

xoxo Ei Leen xoxo

Hugz~

We used to long for each other's hugs

Treasuring every precious hug

Treating each hug like a precious gem

I still long for it very much

But how come i feel that you don't feel the same as me anymore?

xoxo Ei Leen xoxo

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Time to wake up!!!

Mymy! It's the 2nd last week of school already. Another week would be all my practical exams. Haven't study for it yet. I hope i'll get to it soon enough. Time passes so fast. This 2 month long holidays will be my last long holiday i have in NP. Then it would be 3rd year projects and attachments. Argh....

Exams are starting in about 3 weeks time. Gonna have my exams on consecutive days which is so wrong and so packed. IMM after HGD. My gawd. I should just crush all my papers into marche and eat them up for dinner and breakfast. How?! I somehow knew that i would do quite badly for this sem. I am so dead.

Kare! Help me... Ohoh.. Special thanx to Kare for the sweet surprises and er..thoughtful thoughts. *hUgz*

Kare~~ Rmb it's around this time that we got to know each other? Really brought back alot of memories... Wanna hold your uneven hands! Heh heh..~ Only wwanna hold yours....

Lol. Just as i'm typing this, waiting for Kare to finish his lessons, Yu Xiu my primary school friend was just sitting across from me and i couldn't recognise her. Haha! I didn't even know. Stupid blur me. Saw Junwei too. Maybe couldn't recognise cuz they're wearing formal clothes. Still can accept the fact that Junwei and Robz are good friends. Er.. Always play games and hang out together. Such an irony! ?______?

Oh yar. Yanxia trying to gather all 1M05 people to go Sentosa after exams! I suggest the friday after the exam week.. Which i think should be around 16? Not sure. Tentatively should be that fri since most of us finish exams on Wed. But nowadays keep raining leh.... So cold and gloomy. = ( But very nice weather to sleep tho. Hahaa...

Pam~~ I still don't get to see u around nowadays! Haha... Good luck for exams k. *hUgz*

To Alicia, YX, KC~~ Good luck k! Do well...

To everybody else~~ Good luck.... Sleep well, rest well...

xoxo Ei Leen xoxo

Weird Moi...

Happy 10th month to me and Kare... Had a good day with him but i did naughty things. Haha..! Ah ah.. Don't think dirty things.. I juz skipped Maths lecture ( which is a super difficult thing to decide since Mrs Chan has such sharp eyes! She knows who is absent, every single one) . And i managed to dodge from Kai ngan so that i can't lend him my lappi. Oops~! Lolz.. But it's alright. Everything was good. Rented the vcds Robz wanted to watch, namely It and Happy Gilmore. Juz that i missed my fireworks festival at Esplanade cuz it starts at 11pm. Why so late!!!! Argh... But then, i thought i could catch another fireworks display on tues.

But...Nah... Didn't catch it yesterday either. Thought i could go blading in ther evening and see sunset and then go bridge in time to see my fireworks. But nope. It all didn't happen. I was imaginging this whole scene since last week. Of cuz i'm disappointed that it didn't happen. I was anticipating it the whole last week... But... oh well... i guess it just didn't meant to happen my way.

Anyway, all that happened was that Robz relatives came over and had a party. So... it was not nice to snatch him away to go see fireworks, i guess. So..yar.. stayed there with his aunts and cousins till about 9 and went home. Of cuz i'm sad. I won't deny it. But the weird thing was that i pretended to be alright. So why didn't i make my sadness known?Oh well, it was just meant to be. He owes moi.

xoxo Ei Leen xoxo

It's been a long time..

Kk.. lots of people complaining that i didn't update my blog these few days.

Hmm...lots of things to review on. CT just passed. In my opinion, i didn't do very well. AMB was sucky becuz of the marking scheme. I wonder who's fault is that if the whole cohort doesn't do well due to the incorrect marking scheme, incorrect marks allocated for the question and incorrect way of asking the question. Give ya an example. If the question asks you to choose A, B, C or D, what would be your answer like? It would only be 1 answer right? Like A or B or C or D. But guess what, the correct answer is B AND D. The teacher said it was the cohort's fault for not asking him about this question during the exam since there are 2 answers. HuH? So you mean all 200+ students are suppose to raise up hands to ask that question?? Not only 1 question ahs that mistake. It's 2 questions for heaven's sake! Imagine how the marks would be improved if the question was stated what it was asking properly! And the teacher had the cheek to say the cohort didn't do so well as expected. What the....

Whatever... IMM was very tedious. When i came out of the exam hall, i felt like i just vomited. Lol. As in vomited all my information out and felt nauseous. Lolz. But it was okay lar, didn't expect myself to score too well either. HGD was okay... Did quite alright. Alot of memorising work. And i just found out why from Jasmine recently. She said that back in India, the indians' system of studying was done mostly by memorising. Ahh.... That is why.. HGD teacher is obviously not local, he's from india. Kavitha the IMM prac teacher's worksheet also needed some memorising work. Not forgetting past year's Physio teacher, who's also an Indian. Wah... her paper is really all memorising work lorz. Ok...now i get it. I'm gonna do what Liyana recommended.. Crush up all my HGD notes and have it for dinner the night before HGD exam. Lolz. But memorising facts is not the way. I believe that when we know the basic facts, we should learn how to apply it in different situations. But! Haven't we ever realise that most indian teachers teach the subjects that needs alot of memorising work? Hmmm.... Yar......... Does that conclude that indians can memorise very well? Okee.. i'm not racist k... I'm just thinking it through.

Maths was alright.. quite please anyway, n=but all mistakes were due to carelessness which pisses me off like crazy. Haiz. My classmates too! Oh my. Is comparing results that important? Of cuz if that person keeps scoring 90 and above for everything, yar, i agree that he/she is pervertic. But.. aiyah..who cares? I worry more about my own results.

Alicia & Yx: Hope you girls did better than me in CT. = ) Take care k..= )
Kare: Good luck for your retest! Will pray for ya and hope that that freak accident won't happen again! Love ya = *

Whee... meeting Von, Celeste and maybe Lynette this friday. Finally. Some reunion time. Miss you guys!

Kare~~ Thanx for spending time with moi... 10 months coming soon~! Haha....= D

xoxo Ei Leen xoxo

WHY???

Why are guys such gongheads* at times?

*clueless souls

Dunno why they have a brain sometimes... Maybe at that point of time, all the blood went to the wrong place.

Maybe not only at that point of time. Gave him a full 17 hrs time to realise that i'm still upset!

Stupid... Guys are such dorkheads at times.

xoxo Ei Leen xoxo

I'm good... i'm good...

Need to improve on my phone skills...

xoxo Ei Leen xoxo

The one i love hurts me the most

Me....

I've changed. I admit that i've changed over the past 7 to 8 weeks. Probably due to me entering year 2. I know i will change to a slightly different person, because i know that once i'm out of my comfort zone, i'm gone. Not literally mentally and emotionally and physically gone. But i know that i would need alot of time to adjust and cope with my new surroundings.

And yea, everything came true. I've changed into another person. I'm not the same anymore. I know i've changed about 40% of myself. And people around me can't accept the new changes in me. Frankly speaking, i don't either. I dislike my newself. I hope i can return to my bubbly, cheerful and 'don't think too much of everything' self. For the past 7 weeks, i was at lost. I didn't know what to focus on. Whether it's studies, family or myself, i didn't know what to put my priority on. I wouldn't say there was much difference in year 1 or year 2. But that slight difference kind of like twirled me around and made me completely lost. Yea, there was still waking up in the morning, going to school, go for lectures, tutorials, pracs and tennis sessions.

But the environment is totally different. A lecture hall full of strangers, new teachers, much more difficult modules, a class or strangers. Yea, some of you may cope extremely well with new environments. But i guess i can't. I admit that i'm afraid to venture out. Though i came poly to 'make' myself be brave enough to venture out and meet new things, new friends and all, i guess i still couldn't take everything all at once. I guess the transfer to level 2.1 was the thing that made me change. I'm not blaming anything for my change. I guess i have to make myself adjust fast enough well not changing myself. The biggest mistake for the past 8 weeks was to lose my focus. I totally lost it. In the end, my family and my close ones suffered the most.

A really big Sorry to my parents and Robz. Sorry to cause unnecessary worries.

I am trying hard to back to myself and not lose my focus anymore. Apologies to Robz, for all the unnecessary quarrels, misunderstandings, miscommunication and everything that caused those turbulent weeks. It was really a rollercoaster ride huh? Sorry. Love you lotz. Thanx for standing by me.

xoxo Ei Leen xoxo

He's MY cutie pie...

Pastel colours...

baby hamsters~!!

Geez!!!

OMG.... i lost another 1 kg! Now i'm like only 49kg?!?! What the heck did i do?! I seriously don't know... i ate like ALOT already. So much junk food and fast food... According to Robz, i'm probably losing my baby fats, but i seriously don't see any difference in my size... Still look the same to me... *scratch head*

Ooo! Juz celebrated 9 months with him.. Time passes by super fast huh? And soon, it's gonna be a year and so on and so forth... It's been a great 9 months. Though last month we had a turbulent month but i'm glad everything is over and yupz... Good things happen to anyone who hasn't lost hope. Don't you agree? I guess everyone has to be patient and don't ever lose hope which is super duper important. I mean, if you lose hope, then what's the point of going on? There would be no meaning in everything you do. No drive, no motivation.... So...yupz! Dare to hope, dare to dream.. Cuz they do come true, i believe. Oh right! Believe! Believing is a super duperduper important thing too... So don't lose hope and believe in yourself!

Saw Sher Lin and Ting 2 on....wed i think. Feels weird after not seeing them for a long time. Sher Lin looks tired.. Muz be stressed. *Must take care ar*

Feeling damn sad for Tonic.. Cuz he's behaviour seems a little crazy.. like no more sense of direction and his eyes looked so sad!! So i've decided to exposed the 2nd level by not covering it with paper and allow him to look down at his kids. But now, he seems more sad! Cuz all he does is lie on the floor and stare at his kids from the 2nd floor. And the sadness in his eyes! I feel so sad for him! Hopefully the kids can eat by themselves by thursday and i'm able to put Tonic back with his kids. The kids aren't able to open their eyes yet though.... I wonder how long..

xoxo Ei Leen xoxo

Wheee...

Finally.. everything is back to normal. Stopped losing weight. Scared me last week when i lost 3 kg! Oops! Nobody could see any difference except Yx and Alicia. Probably they don't see me often. Even i don't even realise it myself. Anyway, from the amount i'm eating nowadays, i should be gaining weight in no time. Lol.

Common test coming.. Time to mug again. I'm still in holiday mood! - ___-''' - School work is Boring-

Update on Gin And Tonic: Tonic's in the 2nd level of the cage. Always eating up the paper i laid to spy on his kids. Luckily i scotch taped the paper to the cage. Guess tomorrow i have to replace the paper again. Gin is doing well, she's spreading her 4 kids to each corner for whatever reasons. The kids have fur now! Greyish tiny fur. Super duper cute! Will try to take pic! Wonder when will the kids be independent enough to allow the family to unite...

Whee...Hope Jasmine will help clear my doubts! Alicia darling too! Hopefully, i'll be saved soon...

Ohoh! Alicia darling~..heard u're sick huh? (From KC) Pls take care k! Good luck for CT! Hope to see u soon! Yx too!! Good luck! *Big hugz*

xoxo Ei Leen xoxo

I feel blessed*

Yea... Indeed... I believe i've been blessed with an angel.

Love you lotz..

P.S. Oh yea~! My hamsters Gin and Tonic are proud parents of 4 kids! Heh heh... I really didn't know Gin was pregnant until i was cleaning their cage 2 days ago. Was tilting the hippo house upside down and out came Gin with 2 baby hamsters still stuck with umbillical cords at her 'u know where'... the other 2 babies came spilling out. I'm so guilty! I seriously didn't know she was giving birth! But yea... I'm glad for Gin and Tonic...

xoxo Ei Leen xoxo

Formal clothings

Glow sticks!!!~

Glowsticks make me happy.... Maybe because it's bright and cheery, that's why i like it so much? It's like telling me there's light in every darkness. So don't feel lost, cuz there's hope. Of cuz, it also depends on the person who gives them to me. *Bleah* = P

I have about 5 glowsticks and 1 star given by a special someone... Pink, orange, green, yellow, blue.... How come it seems like he has an unlimited supply of glowsticks? Hmm.... Anyway, it has been a turbulent week... lots of ups and downs.... Hope things will go smoothly!! I'm gonna explode if things doesn't go my way somehow this week.... my mind is really going bonkers! There's just so much to do, so much to think about and so little time to complete all of them. Moreover, i have to think whether the decision i made or chose is alright anot, will it hurt someone, will it be beneficial to others or me or..... i don't know... just feeling so.... compact. So full. But the thing is.... i don't really know it's full of what.... there's just so many things that i don't really know what important anymore.... don't know what's my priority anymore...

Sorry ppl, if i may zone out sometimes......

Argh! I really need to relax... just for 1 day...recharge my batteries and get rejuvenated. Help me!!!

I don't like year 2... I just wish i could turn back time then stop it when i'm in 1M05.... I really miss them alot.. the happy times... *Sigh*

Robz played in the Advance Open today... Won 6-1 6-2... Love his forehand top spins, impressed by it. Wonder how he spin until like that... *there's no word to describe it* ... Whereas MY forehand suck to the core... Argh~. Papa bought me a tennis skirt today, with a white shirt to go along. He said he couldn't imagine me in skirt, playing tennis when he bought it. But when i tried it on at home, he was surprised that i actually looked quite good. Lolz... Papa's funny....

Weird.. i'm updating like twice in a day... Something's wrong with moi.

xoxo Ei Leen xoxo

Updating....

Kk... Somebody is complaining for the lack of updates and disappointing my loyal readers. - _____-'''

Well well well, have been really busy as you can see and blogging and going online to surf the net has really taken a backseat. With projects, catching up with lectures and getting everything done at the same time, it's really sucking up all my time and brain juices. Weekends are not as enjoyable when i know i have to burn midnight oil to finish up my online tutorials and maths homework. Tiring ar... i so need Rob's hugs now.

Ohoh!!! Saw Alfian kor yesterday at Toa payoh interchange while having snacks with Robz. He looks quite good now... Lolz...Must have looked weird sitting there munching bread with Robz. But it's these simple things like spending time together doing simple things that keeps me sane. But still, miss him lotz... = )

Hmmm.... Last 2 weeks was quite emotional. Resolved everything in the house. I'm ok with my mum already. I'm glad i told her what i'm not happy about and i told her to not bottle up stuffs anymore. Yupz.. hope that things will go smoother now. *Hugz to mummy* Well, i did try to update my blog about 5 days ago, when i was super angry over my mum, but somehow.....when i wanted to post the entry up, the internet failed me. Maybe it's like what Pammie said. It's meant to be deleted. I remember one of the 10 commandments God said - ' Honour your father and mother'.

That aside.... GSS is gonna be over soon! I wanna buy my white sports shirts!!! Argh! Common test is coming soon. Oh my! It's like week 6 already! Time really passes super fast! Somehow i'm still not comfortable in the year 2 life. It's just so stressed up, tedious..... i don't know. Is it just me or are my classmates super weird? I mean, as time passes by, i got to know them better and stuffs...but somehow, i still don't feel as if i belong there..... And sometimes, i feel so....out of place.. so lonely... so...... foreign.

Hmmm.... i don't know.... just hope i'll do well this semester...

xoxo Ei Leen xoxo

CSI..~

I hate growing up!!

*Ahhhh* Finally i have like half an hour to seat in front of my comp and do some online stuffs. Realised that i haven't been on the net for sometime and haven't blog for a Looooonnngggg time. I feel so damn tired and stressed out. Stressed out not by studies but by everything going super fast around me. Everything's happening super fast, there's no time for me to digest everything.

Met Yx and Alicia darling today, gonna meet them tomorrow again tho. Happy 19th Birthday Yx!! Lao le... Lol... Miss them lots... especially 1M05. I hate being in year 2!! I feel so lonely..School's not fun anymore for me. Tho sometimes it's alright, cuz Robz is there for me... But sometimes, it really sux. Why must i go year 2!? Why can't i stay in year 1 and stay in 1Mo5? Why must everyone grow up? Love the teenage years.... Dread the adult life where i have to leave my comfort zones... Haiz.

So much happened over the week. Oh... The mum thingy? It's still cold war. It's not my fault and i'm not gonna back down. Oh yar! Dissected a mice. May post up the photo.. if i have the time. I didn't have the courage to pull the tail cuz it's like still actively running around instead of feeling drowsy due to the injected liquid. It's hyperactive lor! In the end the teacher had to pull the tail for us. But it's really quite interesting lar. I feel really sorry for them cuz we're like breeding them to dissect them. Get what i mean? But then, we're like kind of studying them also lar. So it's not that bad i guess. Today for HGD prac, we had to kill fruitfly larvaes...Gross lor... Think Jasmine pulled like 15++ larvaes. I pulled about 3 to get the salivary glands out. Now my eyes are like damn tired cuz we must dissect the larva under the microscope and view the chromosomes under compound microscope. My gawd....my eyes!!! There's 2 practicals today too! 8 to 5 with 1 hour break. Wahh.....tiring lor! Thank God my microbio lab work still quite successful.

Phew...That was longggg...

It's week 4 already...!!! My! Time passes really fast! In a blink of an eye, it's probably common test already. Argh......Why must there be time?! Why can't everything just stop at some time of life where everyone's happy and stay happy forever?.... Argh....

I hate being alone.

xoxo Ei Leen xoxo

I'm not guilty

I'm not guilty of anything. I swear i asked her alot of times whether the photos need to be developed. It's her fault. All of it.

I'm not guilty of anything, i've done no wrong. You may think it's my fault. But one day, u'll realise and regret all your actions.

I'm giving in to you because of papa only. Don't always think u're always right.

xoxo Ei Leen xoxo

*Sigh*

Lots of stuffs happened over the weekend and during the week.... I'm feeling damn exhausted. Feel like i've only been sleeping 3 hours a day and still don't have enough time for everything. Sorry people, if i kinda zone out sometimes and may seem to have forgotten you. But i'm really damn tired.

Parents came back from Bangkok not long ago. They went away for the weekend. They told me that the Tuktuk man cheated them.
Belle~! Please be careful! Don't kana cheated by them too.. They'll bring you to some ulu places and ask you to buy stuffs from their friends... Please take care when you're having fun..don't let your guard down k...= )

Went church on Sunday with Robz. Wah~! Eye-opening experience. The people there were so friendly! I'm surprised. But even more shocking is that they're not really forcing you to believe, or practising evangelism strongly even though it was the 'Search for 'newcomers' Day'. They were like, 'Please, only when you're ready to believe and finish asking your doubts then think about being a Christian.' I'm surprised. The sermon was extremely good that day. It really struck something in me. It answered my questions about life, death and afterlife. It didn't really relate much to religion stuff, that's my point of view. It kind of justify how life and death really means. And i was just discussing with Robz about life and death the other day. That was really a coincedence! Of cuz, it was not only these stuffs that just happened to happen, there were a few other things that made me wonder.... Is it my time?

But i've made a decision. I'll wait for about 2 years before i really go into Christianity. I think i'm still not ready though Elder Chin has decided to help me. In the mean time, i'll just keep bugging Robz with questions.. If he can't answer, maybe when he goes to church, Elder Chin can help us... = )

Phew~... That was a relief, finally managed to pour them out. School's a little tiring. Every wed, there's 6 hours of practicals! Argh! 3 hours Applied Microbio and 3 hours Human Genetics. Tiring ar! 2M01 is still separated into 4/5 and 1/5. Lolz.. The 4 of us still don't really mix well with them. But there's progress... Communicating with a few of them. We're forced to do so cuz everyday, 2 of us needs to go check on the class mice... So....Yupz.... Sometimes, some things need to be done.

Having club tournament this weekend. Abit nervous cuz Stefanie Tan's gonna play too.. But sadly, there'e only like 6 players including me. ...... - ______-''' Anyway, hope i can win some cash though, there's my ulterior motive. Lolz. But the matches are gonna be through round robins, which i hate and it's using a tiebreaker score lor! It's not fair.... But i'll try my best. = )
*Biting nails*

This is a longgggg entry.....better get going..

Pammie: I'm fine already.. thanx for the *hugz*!! Kisses to u! See ya on Mon. = )

Hedz: Thanx... See ya on mon at the buz stop!

Alicia and Yx: Girls!!!! I miss u 2!! = P *Big hugz* Hope you'll like the photos... = ) Take care gals! Don't be too stress yar?

Celeste: Glad u like the pressie... say hi to Von for me... Update me on ur blog k.. = ) *Hugz*

xoxo Ei Leen xoxo

Looks familiar? Yup..The amazing race team came here...rmb?

Lunch...It's some huge baked potato...

Blue Mosque

Agassi spotted!!~~

Cappadocia skyline..

Again...

These are volcano leftovers...the bottom are eroded by sun, wind and rain...

Cappadocia..

Like snow huh? But it's actually calcium deposits...

Cotton castle..

Library of Celcius

House of Virgin Mary

Ephesus

Pergamon again...

Pergamon

City of Troy

Trojan horse frm movie set

Istanbul

What will i expect?

Whee... Juz came back from Turkey on Monday night. The trip took a toll on my body. Was really tiring and i fell sick. Had stomach flu, vomitted and had diarrhoea on the 4th night. But by the time the trip ended, i recovered and managed to enjoy the last few days. But passed on the virus to my bro, so he didn't get to enjoy the last few days. *Feeling really guilty* The trip was really good. The sightseeing part was an eye opener, but the road trip was killing all of us. On average, we spent each day on the bus for about 6 hours in total just to get from one city to another. We clocked 12 hours once. Woah, this is the 1st trip i actually managed to lose weight. Usually i gain about 2 kg before i come back home. Lol~....

May post pics some other time for Alicia and Yx's sake. = )

Parents and bro are away. Parents went Bankok, bro went Cameron Highland to climb Mt Ophir. So staying with my aunt for the time being. I always enjoy spending time with her. = )

Going to church on Sunday with Robz. Having mixed feelings about it. Kind of excited at the same time, cuz i dunno what i'll learn. But abit doubtful and scared cuz i dunno whether that 1 hour of mass will change my whole lifetime and belief anotz. *Confused*

Well well, schhool juz started. Met Stacy, Gong Rei. They're in NP too. *Surprised* Imagine my look of surprise when i saw Gong Rei. omg. Lol... But he's actually quite a nice guy lar. Lol~... Argh!! The only thing that keeps me going to school is to complete my another 2 years and to see Robz. The class sux lor. Got transferred to level 2.1. *Cries* Together with Liyana, Jas, Pam, Mirza and Belle. Though i'm glad we have them, but i kinda feel lost without 1M05. Haiz. What to do? Life has to go on. I especially miss Yx and Alicia!!! *Hugz to them* It's not the people that i don't like. It's just that i hate to be taken out of my comfort zone. Though i'm trying hard to settle in, it seems so hard!... But i'll continue trying.

I miss 1M05. Mrs Tang!!! Help me!!!

xoxo Ei Leen xoxo

I've understood...

Wow..thanx girl... I think i kinda jue2 wu4 le...

Got my answer... On why did God put the tree there...

He wanted to test if Adam & Eve, would trusts n obey him.

*yes, they had a choice as what u said, you have a choice too*

Even as christians, God put each & everyone of his children through test & trails. This is to show whether if, his/her faith in the Lord is strong enough to avoid all temptations. However, we're weak...and often unable to resist temptations, thats' why... we need to pray to him constantly for wisdom & strength. The Bible, which is also called the word is the tool for christian to fight against temptations by satan..

Okeeee.... Pardon me for my direct question. But why must we listen to him?? Er... What's so great about him? Juz because he 'created' us?...... Ermz...

Sorry if i do offend anyone. I'm just trying to find answers....

Was reading newspaper today and there was an article about interracial relationships. I think that it's not the colour that matters the most. It's the religion and language issues that are the core problems. Juz take a Muslim and a Christian as an example. They each believe that they'll go to different 'heavens'. So one of them must be able to compromise willingly to convert to either one's religion. But, doesn't it mean losing your own faith? Doesn't it take time like months or even years to actually believe that your own God actually exist? I mean, you don't just believe just for the sake of believing eg, when your parents told you to do so?

xoxo Ei Leen xoxo

Hmmm....

Went to test drive car today with my family. CRV is definitely a better choice than RAV4.

Was late to go watch Robz match today at Kallang. Lost though, hope he'll take it easy.

Went to his house to take a look at my hamsters... Gin & Tonic. They're Sapphire breeds. Damn cute. Saw the damage they did to the house in less than a week. The corner of the roof was already bitten off... Thinking of getting them a wooden house. We wanna make it like safari theme. Love their names though! Gin and Tonic~~... So cool~! Was actually thinking about Snap and Pearl--- 'Snapple'? Vodka Vanilla etcetc... Haha... But decided on Gin and Tonic... Gin's the gal, Tonic's the guy...

Ooo.. thanx to Nessie and Alicia for the pet shops thingy. Went to Parkway in the end. Things there are definitely cheaper than Pet Safari at Simei... Thanx alot gals!~ = )

Was reading some stuffs about Adam and Eve, Garden of Eden and tree of wisdom. Lately, Robz has been going to church again. He's asking me to join him. Was thinking about it...haven't really made a choice yet. I don't wish for anyone to force me to 'enter' a religion. I mean, i DO have a choice right? And i do have God to back me up on everyone has a choice to choose.

Why did God put the tree in the garden, if he didn't want Adam and Eve to eat from it?

Wouldn't all the subsequent problems have been avoided if Adam and Eve couldn't get to the tree?
If God had constructed the Garden of Eden so that there were no rules and no way for Adam and Eve to do wrong, then Adam and Eve would be effectively forced to obey God. In order for us to be free - which in this case refers to the freedom to follow or ignore God - we have to be able to make choices. Adam and Eve couldn't have chosen to follow God if they literally had no other choice.

So.... I'm still pondering... I mean, i have so many questions. They need to be answered before i decide on anything.....

xoxo Ei Leen xoxo

Sighz....

*Phew* So much has happened.. i don't know where to start...

Firstly, met Celeste on Wed to get pressie for Vonnie's 18th bday. I don't update myself on the 'in' colour but somehow, i learnt my lesson to be more 'fashion- updated' the next time i choose to wear something. Eg~~> Wore a green top out, coincedently, Celeste wore a green top too! And guess what? It's green day!! We spotted like what? 3 dozens of people wearing green too! Quite embarrassing and awkward to see someone wearing the same shade of green walking past you like every 30 secs. I may have exaggerrated a lil', but wth...!!! According to Celeste, it's spring! So green IS in! (So i've heard...) When i told Robz about my green day, guess what?! He was wearing green too! -_____-''' How.....Green....

Btw, 'Amercian Idiot' is a nice song... Lolz...

Oh well, finally got to meet Celeste. Lots to yak about... We both agree that our fashion sense had definitely changed after entering poly. Anyway, glad to have met up after almost 5 to 6 months. Met Vonnie today too!

Happy Belated 18th Bday! Hoped you like the pressie.

Really happy to meet them again after so long. Finally managed to catch up. Kind of envy Robz and his best friend Steven. I mean, they catch up like more often than me and my secondary school friends. And they're guys! For heaven's sake! Shouldn't girls be doing all the meeting ups and catching ups more often than guys? Haiz... But at least every now and then, we still manage to catch up. Hope we'll still remain in contact. I still remember during sec 4 what Lynette wrote for her compo exam or test, about the future. She said she imagined what the 5 of us would be. That would be Me, herself, Celeste, Vonnie and Liyana. Some become housewives, business women and blahblahblah... Can't believe she could actually write that for an exam or test, i couldn't remember. But it was unbelievable. Lolz...

Missed the time the 5 of us had... The wonderful times... Me, walking with Lynette home... Eating Ben and Jerry's ice cream! Cookie dough ice cream from Shell Station! Lolz... Those were the timeeeeessss........

Went swimming with Alicia darling yesterday morning. Weather was not that good, but at least it was not scorching hot! It was actually drizzling? But i wondered how i actually managed to get darker... But the real mystery was i even got sunbunrt on my cheeks! It's like.....pinkish red? ?!??!?!?!? I don't know why..........?_?

But had a good time with girl... Finally met up after 4 weeks of hols... Haha... Except for that time for passing my bottle back and Webby almost got knocked down... -___-'''

Oh!!! Happy Belated 18th Bday Mirza!! *Bleah*

Couldn't sleep, so decided to blog after MIA for so long... Haha...= )

Chill everyone!

xoxo Ei Leen xoxo

Isn't it weird?!

Geez! I think i'm so going to throw away my blue tennis shorts! It's bringing me bad luck!

Argh~! !#$$#%@^^&*^

Everytime i wear that pair of shorts, something terrible will definitely happen to me in the tennis court. From what i remember, 1st time was when i tripped in Safra tennis court. Tripped over myself i think. The 2nd time i fell was in kallang. Fell on my butt somemore, in front of the whole tennis team. ARGH! Juz thinking about it makes me feel stupid and embarrassed. 3rd time was when Robz 'ACCIDENTALLY' smashed the ball onto my head. Pain until i cry. *Ow* Now! This is the 4th time. Argh!

Hurt my hip bone, palms, scratches on my knee and elbow. Supposedly, while retrieving a forehand from my bro, i stepped onto a stray ball. ARGH!

I'm not superstitious. But this is so damn weird!

Anybody up for swimming??

xoxo Ei Leen xoxo

Got lost today... Again?

It was a close call. Met Alicia today so i could have my bottle back. Kind of bu4 xi2 guan4 w/o it. She brought Webby and Yoko to show me but just before 5 steps from saying hi to her, Webby escaped from her leash and ran to the road!! OMG! Gave me and Alicia a heart attack! Managed to save Webby! *Phew* Lucky the traffic light was red and cars were slowing down... It was a huge sigh of relief. Alot of thanx to Alicia for the thoughtful thought of bringing her 2 dogs to show me. Really appreciated it. *Thanx girl*...

I don't know how to start, but from here on, i'm just gonna type what pops up in my mind. Really appreciated Alicia's gesture today. I may only know how to say 'thanx girl', but inner soul just wanna hug her, squeeze her and return her a BIG favour. But i juz don't know how to express myself, i guess. *Shrugs*

Robz said something to which brought up my some things i tried to bury at the back of my head. I thought i had done enough to push it back... But somehow, it kind of just stuck in my head...again. Not blaming Robz, but yea...made me kinda feel at loss now... Again..

I'm not sure if anybody agrees with me, but i think it's the way we're brought up? You know, the eastern way and the western cultural differences? Like how the westerners are more expressive than the asians... Our affectional level may be no difference but the expressive factor is definitely much lower than them. Agree? E.g. Kid hugs and pecks on parents whenever they need to part, kid may be going to college in other country or may be juz going to school. They hug. Why aren't the asians doing this? We, or maybe just me, just say, 'Mummy, i'm going out already.' Where's the goodbye hugs and pecks on cheek?

We may not know it, but what if something happens while you're out and would you want words or touch( hugs) to be the last thing you give to your mum and dad? I remembered the time when my bro and i had to give a 'thank you' speech during the celebration of my parent's anniversary in front of my relatives. My bro blahed everything, but i was speechless. I was about 14 or 15 i think. I didn't know how to do it but i said a simple thank you to them. I couldn't do it, i could not say it out loud that i appreciated them alot, wanted to thank them for nurturing me, their precious time taking care of me. Simply, i just wanna give them BIG hugs and never wanna let them go. For now, i feel like giving them hugs... And just wanna let them know i'm really thankful for having them as my parents.

I get emotional whenever i see them quarrel. Simply becuz, why get angry with each other over petty stuffs when u guys can spend the time, feeling happy, cuddling with each other and show your love openly. I seriously don't mind if my parents are watching TV in the living room and my father just wanna kiss my mum or put his arms around her or wanna take a romantic getaway. Hmm.. I've never seen them kiss before!! Haha... PLEASE LEH! Don't just hold hands! Be more affectionate and be more open leh! -_____-''' There's seriously nothing wrong in doing that! What if you know it's your last day on earth tomorrow? Are we gonna start regreting and think why didn't i do that? It's not just between a couple's love, there are many different relationships in my life that i think i've not shown enough concern. I may look oblivious to these relationships, but they're actually more important and hold more meaning to my inner soul than anyone could have imagined.

I kinda regret that i don't show enough concern to my parents, friends and aunt. I can't just go around hugging these people simply because it doesn't work this way here, in Singapore, in this eastern culture influences. I mean, how often do you see us, asians hugging relatives goodbye in the airport? The more often actions are, 'Bon vogage!', 'Have a good trip!' or 'Have fun and enjoy your trip!'. What if we're never able to see each other again? Would i want words to be the last thing i say to other person? I would much rather have a long tight hug or a pat on the back or a simple gesture like patting my hand or something like that. Of cuz, if there's no touch, i guess words would be better than nothing.

I prefer to lead my life simple and no complications. I believe that even though i may not get to experience life's highest high, as long as i go to bed everyday, contented that i did not regret on anything, happy that everyone around me is happy, glad that i did my best in everything that i COULD do to make everyone and myself satisfied, live life to the fullest everyday, I would have gone to my next life happily. Of cuz, i havent achieved what i wanna achieve. That is, make a difference in this world. Maybe be a helping hand in the research of cancer or some disease or what. That would be my drive towards life. Of cuz, i would not go happily if i really die tomorrow because i AM regretting that i'm not showing enough concern and appreciation to my parents. I'm still liberating how to do that. Should i just hug them now? Or what? I don;t know. Saw Robz hugging his parents just before they left for a trip. Have i ever done that??

What's gonna happen after death? Why do i exist? In my opinion, it's to experience life. To experience life's ups and downs and feel how is it like. And to make a difference in this world. This is what i believe. That's my drive towards life. That's what i live for. Some may not agree with my motto in life and may even lose faith and lose direction in life. But i truly believe in myself and not in religions or what..... Sorry to religion followers, but that's what i think. That's my view towards life. It doesn't matter what happens after death, because i know that when i'm gone, i know that i would not regret on existing.

Of cuz, i can only say that when i think i managed to make a difference in this world and not regretted on any of my actions.

xoxo Ei Leen xoxo

Can u see the shape of mother earth? If can't, i can tell u it's ROUND...heh heh...

Birthday boy!!

SoOoOoooo not my day today.... Saded...

The day didn't happened what i wanted it to be...

First of all, the day before, i wanted to have Robz mom's permission to come over early in the morning, guess she understood cuz it's his bday today. She said, 'why not?' I was like... Okee!! Hoped and prayed hard that things will go as planned. But guess what!? It definitely went the opposite direction! Juz thinking about it makes me feel embarrassed and wanna dig a hole and hide there forever and ever~~...

First, he has a tournament going on and had been going to matches about 3 days in a row already. So i assumed he'll wake up at 11am as usual so i thought i popped by at 10.30am to surprise him. But guess what, his maid thought he got no match today and woke him up at 10! ARgh! I was late! So when i sneaked up to his house...... BOY! Was i SO EMBARRASSED! And he juz finished his breakfast! ARGH!!!!! NO MORE SURPRISE! Haiz..... SO SAD.....

Gave him the slice of cake-- Didn't want him to get fat and indigestion-- later cannot play match properly. And guess what! The slice of cake toppled down!! So had to poke the stupid candle in the middle of the cake while the cake was lying down on the side! ARGH!!!!! Things had to go wrong at that point of time! It was damn weird k.... And i started tearing cuz everything didn't go as i planned!!! *Screams in horror* I'm so worried that he'll not be happy, i mean?? Hello!!! 1st no surprise?? Then the cake collasped?!........ but he said he was VERY HAPPY.... But.. wth.... unfortunately, things didn't go MY way! WHYYYYY100000000x?!?!?!!?~~!?!?!

Had lunch at home... went to ECP for a walk... Nice day for walking! Cuz it was after rain... breezy and not sunny. I thought the day was gonna get better... u know? Like bad start in the morning....then as the day goes on... things get better? But apparantly... IT DID NOT! Horrors and horrors!

Went to McDonald's to get ice creams.... I had vanilla cone and he had mcflurry. Took 2 bites of mine and turned around to get out of the place. But guess what!? The cone flew out of my hand!!!! OH GAWD! The scene was like a little kid's cone flew and the whole ice cream was juz ruined? You know? Like the top of the ice cream was flat down on the floor? Haiz!!!!!...... Damn demoralised!~~~ WHY?!?! Why has it got to be this way?! Decided to get a seat in Mac to calm my nerves... But got restless.. so walked out. But on the way out, saw the Mac staff mopping the floor.... and HE HAD TO POINT TO ME THE 'WET FLOOR, PLEASE BE CAREFUL' SIGN!!! ARGH!!!!.... I was on the verge of crying already!!! But didn't want people to think i was crying because of a ruined ice cream...It was lunchtime hour, so it was quite crowded... HAIZ! TAHAN!

I was getting SO DAMNED DEMORALISED! But he said i was damn cute....the way i reacted in those stupid situations. WTH! CUTE! I WAS SO SAD! But wanted him to be happy today cuz it's his day....So.....kept everything to myself... and kept my cool...~

I was lucky that the day went by smoothly without glitches.....*PHEW*.... And he won! So he's gonna play with the no. 2 seed tomorrow... Wish him luck and hope everything goes well.... Hope he'll play well.... and not be too tired tomorrow....

*Sighz* I'm so damn tired! To and fro his house for don't know how many days.... Exhausting man.... Really touched by what he said to his mom in the car today. Was going back to his house after the match and i was resting.. closing eyes cuz i was literally DRAINED OUT... But i was still conscious. His mum saw me 'sleeping' and conversation went like this,

M: Wow, really tired huh?
R: Yar, probably.
M: Want me to send her to MRT now?
R: Nah, she got her stuff in the house.
M: Oh, but still can drop her off if she's too tired.
R: Nah, the most i carry her back home. (Everybody please *Awwww*)
M: Wah... so da4 fang1( gracious) ar? First time leh... (Please *AWWWWW* even louder!! Haha..)
R: Really meh? *Chuckles*

Haha...so sweet huh... i was tearing at the back of the car... Haha....yah... but i know he's damn tired today. Considering he played 5 matches in 4 days, today played 3 sets somemore... So yar, feel kinda guilty whenever he walked me to bus stop cuz he still have to squeeze energy out to walk the 1.5km route to the bus stop. He kinda worried for me cuz my eyes were red today...due to...tearing and tiredness... But it was all worth it... It's for him...

The sky was nice today... Lotsa stars to admire! Very lovely... Nice ending to this day....

Love him lots... Hope he enjoyed his day though...

xoxo Ei Leen xoxo

See?? This is East Coast! No kidding! Nice rightz?

*Bleah*

Weeee...good day good day~! It's our 6th month today.

08/04/05

Seems like yesterday i just typed in my blog that i said yes to him on 08/10/04. And i just announced to the listeners of thesurfersbabe radio station (Eunice or Pammie created tt, i can't rmb who).

Woah...Time really passes damn fast... Gonna be year 2 soon. And my tennis senior just told me how that we need to kill mice! Ahhhh~! *Freaking out* He say when u kill the mice, you use the forceps and grab the tail or neck and just pull. Argh!!! Gross! So pain!!! Poor mice!

But i guess we just have to do it...argh! Sick!

So old liao! ARgh~! Must be more responsible already... Plus i wanna learn driving and stuff.... Haiz.

Kiyo dearie~~ Sorry that i keep blowing u off... sorry.. will make it up to u...i promise!

xoxo Ei Leen xoxo

Wheee~~!!

Spent 3 consecutive days with him...Lolz.. Happy happy happy~!

Went to tpy library on mon to look for books to read. Gawd. The library is so damn lousy. There's absolutely nothing to borrow there. No Judith McNaught, Susan Elizabeth Philip, Sidney Sheldon, Nicholas Sparks nor Dan Brown! Not even comics are available. Bored! But lucky he's there to accompany me. Though we spend so much time together, i still can't seem to get enough of him. Miss him like crazyyy...

Watched Constantine at his house on tues. Hm...Very confusing show. Thank gawd there's him to narrate the story for me during the whole show. Without him, i would not be able to understand what is it about, with my meagre knowledge of how heaven, hell, angels and demons work.

Went blading with him today. We kana sunburnt lor! Even though it's like what...2 hours in the sun only?! Okok! it was like 11 to 1 plus lar...but still?!... What the... So i'm like redder than ever. With the recent Sentosa outing and now?!....

-_____-'''

But weather was PEEERRRFECT... Though we experienced both ends of the weather, it was a damn sweet day for us. Hehheh... With the day starting bright and sunny, it was a great day for blading! Yay! And the sea was damn beautiful today! There's like clear waters, really clear blue-green waters on our East Coast shores today! I'm not lying! It's true! Will post pics next time. Went to his house and showered. Rained in the afternoon though. But since both of us were hungry, went to 7-11 for snacks. The instant mashed potato was actually quite good! Suprisingly. The walk there and back from 7-11 was damn sweet. Since it was like drizzling, we're both huddled until the umbrella all the time, keeping each other warm. SUCH A NICE FEELING! Sorry for all the gushiness but it was really good! = P

It was a damn nice start to the 7 weeks of holiday! Woohoo.... Damn happy... I feel so blessed with him.

Oh yar, we were walking back to his house after blading when we were crossing the road at VJC. The green man was on and there was like 12 secs left when we were still about 3 steps away from reaching the other side. Then this old man popped out from the side of the road, ok..imagine we're walking and facing the other side of the road, then this old man zoomed past us on his bike like from left to right, can imagine? Yar, anyways, we were taking our time to cross the road lar, Robz was on his blades, i was not cuz i don't want to blade up and down the overhead bridge. But since he so PRO, it's like a small matter to him. Back to topic--, yar, this old man zoomed past us and shouted, 'WAH, walk so slow somemore!' I was like huh?!?! *Stare at Robz then the old man-- But he was quite far cuz he's on bicycle. I was like..what the? I thought Robz knew the guy but apparantly he did not? There's like still 12 secs what! What's wrong?! Really pyscho lor! I mean? What was that about?! Shouted at us somemore. What the. Never mind. Crazy man.

Eek! I miss Alicia darling and Xia~!!! Xia~...u working ar? Work as what? and where? Don't tire yourself out k... Love ya guys!

xoxo Ei Leen xoxo

Hmmm...

Went Sentosa yesterday with classmates. Alvin came too...very cool magic tricks i should say. Yan Xia would definitely agree with me. Right? Haha... Very impressed. Really got me awed. Had fun though, played the hantam something, forgot what's the name. Real tiring, considering i didn't eat anything except for 4 potato chips and a handful of mini cheezeballs. Had my tan, but i'm not happy with it cuz like not much difference. But my face is red larz. Had to leave early to go meet him. Terrible things happened. But i'm glad the day ended pretty well.

Really miss him alot. Haiz. Hope to see him sooooonnn....

Woke up at 5.45am today to go Jemaluang, Malaysia for Qing Ming. So i'm reallllllllllyyyy shagged right now. Cause went to play tennis during the evening. Plus, i juz came back from celebrating my papa's birthday. He wanted to go this french restaurent in Chijmes, but apparantly it closed down. So went to OchoBar for Spanish food instead. It was good. But service was waaaayyyyyy bad. 0/5. Lol~.

Proceeded to Cafe Cartel for dessert at RafflesCity. Saw Andrea, Pammie's friend. And apparantly she didn't recognise me. Conversation went smthing like tt,

E: u're andrea right?
A: Err...huh?
E: Er..(Thinking~ hope i did not recognise the wrong person *prays hard*).. From ngee ann right? LSCT?
A: Er...yarr..(proceeded to put down my dessert)
E: Er... we're lecturemates????????? Pamela's friend??????
A: (Gives me blur looks)....Orh..okkkk...
E: Er....nvm..... Thanx( when she finshed putting down my desert)

SO PAISEH. -____-''' Nvm.....

All this happened in front of my parents.... Haiz,,,saded...But nvm... swear i'll never say hi to anyone from Np again unless they tok to me first. HMPF!

xoxo Ei Leen xoxo