uh oh..

Super worried. Super nervous.

Positive thinking... Positive thinking... Positive thinking... Positive thinking...

xoxo Ei Leen xoxo

I'm Freeeeeeeee~~~!!!

Yea.. I'm free.. Free from exams. At least for about 2 months anyway. = ) It's been a long time since i've blogged. I mean, don't blame ME.. Blame the damn difficult modules i have to take during year 2. Exam was done quite smoothly. I mean, err... i'm quite happy with how i did for the papers. Except for AMB i guess. The notes are really useless lo. I think they should rewrite the notes for AMB. I mean, 60% of what came out for the paper is not found in the notes. Then how would we, the students know how to answer when we don't even know what was it about? Okeeee... Maybe i'm exaggerating, but hey? It's feedback right? I still think they should improve on the AMB notes.

Holidays are here! My goals for this holiday are

1. To go for driving lessons and hope to get my license soon
2. Play well in my tournament
3. Spend more time with Mum
4. Spend more time with Robz
5. Read more books!

My papa only allows me to drive HIS car if i get a license from UBI. Yes. In other words, i cannot drive his car if i graduate from AMK, or bukit batok, or some other places. Why? Because the most skilful drivers come from Ubi. Lolz. Why? Because of the traffic and the roads at Ubi. Lolz. Haiz. He's restricting me lo... But hey, i would rather be a more skilful driver yar? But i still can't imagine myself DRIVING. I mean, the car is so biggggg... And the driver's seat is at the right hand side. The biggest fear i guess would be i can't judge the left hand side. Why can't they just invent cars with a central driver seat? So that the driver can estimate the EQUAL space of the left and right hand side?

Am reading Dan Brown's Angels and Demons currently. His books are so... extraordinary! Really enjoy reading his books. Read The Da Vinci Code already. Which made me think that Dan Brown's really creative! I mean, it's really quite a feat to link everything together. It's really a highly recommended book. Yea, like what Robz said, it's something like a pagan's book, but hey. I really think there's no harm reading any kind of book. If it's interesting and keeps sucking me into the book, then it IS a good book. When i read Angels and Demons, it really kind of enlightened me. For those of you whom already read the book, i don't think you guys really took notice on this 1 and 1/2 pages. i'm gonna repeat it here cuz i really think it touched a raw nerve in me.

Chartrand (Ch): A security guard, Camerlengo (C): Right hand man for the Pope

Ch asked C, 'The Bible describes God as a omnipotent and benevolent deity.'

* Omnipotent- benevolent means God is all powerful and well-being.

But Ch says there's a contradiction because if God is powerful AND well being, then why would there be pain, sufferings, human tragedies, sickness.. etc. Human tragedy seems like proof that God cannot be powerful and well being at the same time. If He loves us and has the POWER to change our situation, He would prevent our pain, wouldn't He?

C frowned, 'Would He?'

Ch says,' Well, if He loves us, He can protect us. He would have to. It seems He is either omnipotent and uncaring, or benevolent and powerless to help.'

*Ahh.. this is the part were it gets enlightening. I admit, this is one question that's been bugging me about Him, and i never would have thought that my answer would be answered by this book. Lolz.

Camerlengo asked,' Do you have children?'

C said no. C says, ' Imagine you have an 8 yr old boy, would you love him?

'Yeaaa.. Of cuz.'

'Would you do everything in your power to prevent pain in his life?'

'Of cuz.'

'Would you let him skateboard?'

*Haha, this question surprised me. Imagine a camerlengo asking a security guard this question. Lolz... it cracks me up...= D

'Yea, i guess. Sure, i'd let him. But i'd tell him to be careful.'

'So as this child's father, you would give him good, basic advice and then let him go and make his own mistakes?'

'I wouldn't run behind him and mollycuddle him, if that's what you mean.'

'But what if he fell and skinned his knee?'

'Then he would have to learn to be more careful.'

' o, although you have the POWER to interfere and prevent your child's pain, you would choose to show your love by letting him learn his own lessons?'

'Of cuz, pain is part of growing up. It's how we learn.'

'Exactly.'

So... what dayya all think? Cool eh? It's so simple yet has such a deep meaning. By this time, i was thinking. Hey! God is kinda Great eh? Well... Ok. He IS Great. Lolz. He's like a parent to us all and we're his children. He loves us. I mean, hey. If we didn't have exams, how would we know to treasure our holidays? Yeayeayea, now i know how precious holidays are to me. Haha... Yea well. I guess if we didn't fall down and skinned our knees, we'll never know how pain felt like and we'll never know how to be careful. Reflect on this.

Hmm... Yup. So i guess everyone should at least read 1 Dan Brown's book. Lol. I sound like i'm marketing his books. But noooo, maybe we can all learn something from his books. I know i know. Some of u guys are not allowed to read these kind of books. But hey, i really really think there's no harm in reading it. It's just a book. Papers filled with words. Isn't it like reading textbooks?

Ohoh.. There's another thing that bugs me... No offence k! Really no offence!!! I don't wanna get in trouble with the law yea?

Err.. Those Christians, Catholics and Muslims right? For those that are studying science..... Won't you all be learning about evolution and all these contradicting subjects that contradicts the Bible and the .... er... Islam religion?

Eh....i don't knoww........It's just a harmless question.....

I miss Robz........ Why must he goooooooooooo!??!?!?!

Argh... Miss him lots...

xoxo Ei Leen xoxo

Hugz~

We used to long for each other's hugs

Treasuring every precious hug

Treating each hug like a precious gem

I still long for it very much

But how come i feel that you don't feel the same as me anymore?

xoxo Ei Leen xoxo