'I should have....' kinda situation

Yup. I should probably give up on you sooner if i knew you were going to say that.
Dun deny that you didn't say it cuz both of us heard what you said.
I'm damn damn super damn disappointed in you. I placed my hopes on you, specially meet up to talk to you. Instead, i felt like i was in a warzone with you shotting directly at me. And i'm just trying to dodge the bullets.
I told you not to be so narrow minded already. But did you take my words in? Apparantly not.
You want to talk to me about my weaknesses? Don't start. Let's talk about yours first. Yours are definitely more serious. If you're still going to be so stubborn? No point helping you anymore. I will say no more to you about your game.
I wash my hands off you.

My weaknesses. Don't say i don't know them. I have a 'pro' boyfriend who watches my game and tell me my faults. Yes, initially i may defend myself, but afterwhile, i realised that, hey! Those are really my mistakes! At least i ACKNOWLEDGE my MISTAKES.

• Forehand - Body turned too quickly, don't jump when hitting the shot, feet stay on the ground, left hand point to the ball
• Backhand - Could do more with accuracy, balance my feet
• Serve- Nothing much, maybe more spin?
• Volley - NO BACKSWING
• Smash - Anticipate the height of the ball

Yup. The rest is up to experience. There is only so much i can do with the basics. But one of the most important key is to have experience. You cannot just keep playing your own game. You must be adaptable to adjust your game accordingly in order to win. If i can win by just popping the ball in, WHY NOT?! Why must i waste my strength to bash the ball so hard!?

Ok. Enough, I'm done helping you.

Sometimes i rally hope you stumble upon my blog. But i'm afraid you may not be able to take it.

Whatever.

xoxo Ei Leen xoxo

My frustrations, disappointments and downfall

It's haunting me. I have to get it out. I guess this would be THE way to help me overcome this.

We could have won. Let me rephrase that. We SHOULD HAVE WON. What the heck. The Gold medal should be OURS. I'm not being a sore loser here. But hello, they didn't win it fair and square. I REALLY hope they feel guilty for the REST of their LIFE. I'm not usually so aggressive in directing such crude remarks, but I'm feeling damn disappointed here.

Yes, maybe I should have been more aggressive with the line call when I'm not sure. I should not have let my partner affect me since I know that she doesn't have any tournament experience. But what the hell, I'm fighting the battle alone. ALONE.
Why?
Because I have to fight 2 opponents across the net, I have to fight against myself, control myself not to bash the ball really hard even though I really want to do that to EVERY SINGLE DAMN BALL, fight against myself to control my patience to wait for the perfect ball to end the shot and win the damn point, fight against my will to scold my partner for every bad shot she made, fight the will to keep nagging and reminding her to keep the ball in rather than bash the ball, but she still doesn't trust me and still not enough patience to wait for a perfect ball to execute the shot.
And when we lose a point, I have another additional thing to fight for. Win another 2 more points so I can cover the loss.

MY GAWD. I'm like mentally and physically exhausted. Like really 200% mentally exhausted. I think I used up all my brain juices just to fight the mental battle. I've to hold myself back all the time, just waiting. Waiting and hoping they stop attacking my partner and hope that they hit an accidental shot to me so I can end the stupid point. I don't think I have done my best. I really don't. Even though outsiders like my advisor, Stanley, my coach and Robz watched the match, they keep saying that they saw how hard I have tried and it's alright. BUT IT'S NOT. It is so NOT! I know I could have done better, I really really regret 1 shot. Which was the short ball at the net, it was a SITTING DUCK!! And I overdrived it and hit out when I could have aim the TP girl standing directly infront of me at the net. I was probably thinking too much about ending the point. I know.... normal humans make mistakes. Even the pros have unforced errors. But hello! It was an extremely important point! It was during tiebreak somemore. Oh gawd. I don't think i can forgive myself for making that stupid mistake. I know i have made mistakes during the match, but i really gave it all during really important points like break points and holding on to my serice game and hopefully my partner's service game. I tried to break the opponents early and gain points.....

Robz told me i did my best. Stanley told me it was a waste to partner my partner. Gopi said it's alright, we did our best on court. But i refuse to take it in. I could have done so much better. What was i thinking on court at that time?! I really don't know why I held back myself during some many points when I could have gone for it, hit a winner and end it fast. The opponents were tired, made them run for their lives for the ever so high lobs of ours, won a few important points to stay in the match. Truthfully, I was really disappointed in myself for not telling my partner off during the important points. I didn't know if I really told her off, what effect would it have on her. Would she would mentally affected? And instead lose the point? When she said she wanted to go for it at matchpoint, I said nono!!! Just keep the stupid ball in, but she kept mumbling- I'll go for it, no more mercy. I kept saying nono!!! But the opponent was already ready to serve and too late, she drived the ball into the net.
My heart dropped.
All my efforts. Gone down the drain.
I fought back from 2-5 down to 6-8 down to 8-8 tiebreak. Oh GAWD. My efforts. Ruined by miscommunication.

I don't want to push the blame to my partner. Because doubles is based on communication and chemistry between the 2 partners. So i admit that i AM at fault for not scolding her for the mistakes she made. Well duh, cuz i don't really know her mental state at that point, she's also very defensive about her game. I don't know if once I tell her her, would she have a mental breakdown? Wouldn't that be much worse? I don't know?! Now it's a 'IF ONLY' situation. If only I had done this, would that have happened? If only I had done that, would this have happen? I hate to regret!! I REALLY HATE TO REGRET!!!!

Was collecting my silver medal just now. My mood was totally terrible. I have neglected my kare. Broke down after taking photos with everyone. Really sorry to everybody about my behavior. But my frustrations were haunting me. Nightmares, thinking about it every night since the defeat, stoning about my mistakes. I really regret that i didn't try hard enough.

Really sorry to kare. Hope u'll forgive me and understand my behavior. Raelly under alot of stress. The stress may have been unnecessary placed on me by myself, but i really feel i'm at fault too. I could have done much better.

lazy

Lazy...Lazy.... i rather go read up my bible and do some discovery than wait for the stupid blogger to finish its maintenance thingy...

Ok...so...what's been going on?

1. i passed my driving test
2. Only on the second attempt
3. Still having my attachment ( 1 more month to go!!! Yay!!!)
4. I can't wait to return to school
5. Alot of rubbish going on between us and our NP supervisor
6. Apparantly, she's having post natal blues ( 99% confirmed by our NUS supervisor)
7. That's why we're given s*** from NP supervisor
8. NUS students are sad, moody, weird, talk-too-much, nothing-else-better-to-do-except-gossip kinda people
9. IVP is going on
10. We're head-to-head with TP (currently quite strong)
11. They are FORCED to SPY on us!!! ( By the coach)
12. If not they're given PT as punishment

Enough update....gonna watch ANTM.

xoxo Ei Leen xoxo

Oblivious

Okay... Oblivious.

I know.. i've been really distracted lately... by many stuffs and i realised that i have neglected some important stuffs..

People around me.. People i care about around me.. Things have been going on and i did not even realised it. I seriously don't know why i did not realise any of these things... I guess i was just so caught up in my own world, the things happening around me, that i did not realise that stuffs have been going on to people surrounding me.

Hmm... i don't know what can i do now..but well... if there's anything i can help... i would have done it...if only i knew. People care so much about me and i.... took it for granted....

Sorry...

xoxo Ei Leen xoxo

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!

I was taken advantage of!! AHHH!! Or that's what i really think!

Was returning home today after watching movie. Took the mrt home. Wore skirt today. Was coming out of Braddell mrt station on the escalator when i feel something tickling my leg! Turned around. Saw this guy 1 step behind me, holding his handphone under my SKIRT!!! IN BETWEEN MY LEGS!!!!!!

ARGH! His handphone's lanyard was tickling my right calf!!! But the thing is... his phone is the sony ericsson orange/white walkman phone which can't take photos with screen facing up. But my parents, brother and bf said it's very easy and quick to just flip the phone around. But i saw the handphone screen was blue ...not really a upskirt picture of me. I'm not really sure! But WHAT THE HECK IS HIS PHONE DOING IN BETWEEN MY LEGS!!!!!! I mean... it's so near that his bloody dangling thing on his handphone is tickling my right calf! Nobody uses his phone so bloody far front and touch the other person in front right?!

So am i a victim of a upskirt photo?! Seriously... i dunno.. but girls! PLEASE beware of such person at Braddell MRT station! Argh... I have a fear of that place already!!

The thing is... i was reaching the platform soon and had to turn around to watch my step... After i reached the platform, he rushed into the toilet! ARGH!!!! That's when i quickly called kare... Who asked me to wait outside the toilet.. but i didn't dare! I can't possibly make a scene!!! How to!??!!?

WHAT to do?!!? What to do?! What if my photo pops up in the internet! I WILL DIE! I will commit suicide!! How to face the world?! Why people like to take my photo!??!?! A few months back a group of freshly graduated o secondary school students took my photo on a 174 bus!!! Just becuz i look like their friend!! Can ask porkie about that stupud incident! ARGHHH!!! What is happening to this world!??!?!

And for heaven's sake!! My skirt wasn't even THAT short! It's above my knees!!!!!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! HOW?!?!?!??!

xoxo Ei Leen xoxo

Lost

I feel lost...

Like a lost sheep trying to find my way home.. trying to find my shepherd...

By the way... Where's my guardian angel?

xoxo Ei Leen xoxo

my photo skills not bad ar..= )

not bad la huh... that's what's left... after like half an hr..

Food... glorious food.... Rosti, pizza, crepes, vege, mashed potato... stingray... Wah lao...

Well well....

Day started happily... Met up with the girls!... Yay~! We had a big family dinner. And i mean BIG! How can we ever ordered 6 dishes for 3 girls... which only 2 of us had very BIG appetite? Lolz. But not bad la.. Alicia ate quite alot la...= ) Proud of ya!

Food! Glorious food~!... Lol.

Though we had healthy dessert! Haha... MeiJi Yogurt! Wanted to eat ben and jerry's ice cream... But.. managed to psycho Yanxia to eat healthily. Hehheh... Was cheap and good! Good choice. Haha...

Day didn't end on a good note though. Met Robz abt 6. Left Yanxia by herself at MPH to wait for her sis and shepherd's pie. Robz had gastric... My poor baby... Haiz. See la... don't eat regular meals la... Then now suffer lo. Haiz. Rush to get him soya milk... to sooth the stupid stomach..but no use. Then send him home lo... Haiz.... my poor baby...

But.... at least we had fun taking photos and *ahem* videos....

xoxo Ei Leen xoxo

What happening to this world?????

I can't believe it. Till now... even after what....4 hours? I still can't believe it.

I can't believe that people actually want to poison me. They wanted to add laxatives in my water bottle and poison me. What have i done to anybody? Not just me. They want to poison 2 other guys too. What have these people done to them? Seriously, people are born like that, so be it. Accept them. Do not judge them.

I'm 19 this year. I can truthfully say that i have absolutely never ever thought of wanting to kill anybody or even hurt anybody. I have no such thoughts of getting a knife, hammer, scissors or laxatives to hurt anybody. I dod not have gruesome ideas to hurt anyone like dig out their intestines or stuffs like that ot chop them up or some gross idea to make them suffer. But i do have thoughts that there will be retribution to the other party if i have been wrongly accused of something. I mean, what goes around comes around. I believe if i have wrongly accused someone or what ever, i believe it will come back and find me and KARMA will happen.

I just can't believe that people at the age of approaching 20 are still behaving like little kids. Come on. Please grow up and think rationally. Don't be a dog and follow others or lick people's boots so that you get onto their good books. GROW UP. Seriously. Please stop pissing me off.

Well, I'm glad that i'm still alive and kicking. Nothing serious happened. But if 1 day, something do happen to me or the 2 guys, i know who to point and who's the murderer.

xoxo Ei Leen xoxo

Now you see me...

Now you don't

Haiz..

Ok... 'Holidays' are starting again. 2 weeks off. But what's the difference? It's packed with projects. Am trying to spend as much time as i can with my family and Robz.

Common test was... alright. I know i won't be able to score well. Cuz i know my answers aren't that precise and answered completely. Haiz. I hope i can do well this semester. It's weird. I dunno why Ngee Ann have to change the school schedule to 2 weeks break after common test and struck off the study break. Then the students will have to rush to study during the week before the common test. It's so jam packed with projects and stuffs already... still gotta study for the damn tests. A little tad stupid to strike off the study break. The study break was super useful to me... At least i get to study at the pace i want, not like now. Now i feel so guilty for not putting aside more time to cram in the stuffs.

Had my Class bbq today. WAH~! When i was on the way to East Coast in bus 31. So many irritating things happened. My gawd. Almost vomitted after i alighted. No offence to malays or chinese cuz both racial group offended me just now. This was what happened. Was sitting at the back of the bus with Robz. Then a group of malays boarded the bus at kallang mrt station. 2 girls 2 boys. The stupid girl...just because she got a new phone... wanted to show off her mp3 handphone. What's the point! Bloody hell. She was blasting music in the bus like she owned the bus. Damn noisy la! So irritating. And she was damn bad to her boyfriend. She kept pulling his ears for whatever reasons and kept trying to squeeze his pimples. I know what she was doing cuz she and her bf sat in front of us. The music was giving me a migraine and Robz couldn't take it also. So he whipped out his nano and blasted my and his ears with it. The thing was that, throughout the ride, i was staring daggers at that inconsiderate girl and her friend noticed and ask her to turn the volume down. U know what the girl replied? She said damn loudly la. Btw, she said, ' But i just bought the phone. It's new! I wanna try it.' Even though the conversation was in malay, i could roughly understnad what they were talking about. SO DAMN INCONSIDERATE! Ok... Never mind. They got off at Marine parade. Finally! It felt like eternity. Then what the hell. A group of Cheena boys boarded the bus and blasted chinese songs! WAH LAO EH. I couldn't take it anymore. Robz and i were like practically pulling our hair off. We couldn't wait to get off the bus. I just can't understand why these people are so inconsiderate. I mean, the bus isn't theirs! Wear headphones for heaven's sake! The passengers in the bus won't appreciate you for sharing your music. So please! Think of others' feelings before you do anything. Argh! So inconsiderate.

The Bbq was.... alright. I expected only the ex-2M01s to come. And yup! Only the 2M01s came plus pam. Well, she had to come..because.... her 'promise' to peel prawns and eat up all the food. Luckily i 'underbought' everything. There was still quite alot of food left. Dr Koh came too. Was really surprised that he came so early to help us. His willingness to dirty his hands and all... Really appreciated it, Dr Koh! Thanx for coming down! Thanx to Pam and Jia jia for helping me to get all the food. Thanx to Yew Teck for helping to start fire.... And didn't get to eat much as he had to rush off for trainging. Sorry if your gf is kana pissed with us. I dunno if she's pissed...but ya.... She looked pissed and probably felt a little lonely there. Hoped the 4 guys will enjoy their night cycling. Take care of your health.... Dun tire yourselves with FYP and all. = )

Most of all, thanx to kare! For helping carry the stuffs to East Coast for me and endured the bus ride. Lol. Love ya... Thanx for visiting me and trying to carry me and hugged me and covered me with all your dirty sweat. Gross but luckily, i love to hug you. Haha... *muackz* Hope you enjoyed your outing with your friends too. Sorry if i kinda interrupted your outing. Haaaa....= )

You love me right? = P

Will load up the photos when Mei leng send them to me...hopefully they're nice enough to load up. Haha... = ) Well, i have to look pretty gross due to the smoky and greasy bbq.

Well well, for these 2 weeks, i hope i get to blade, watch the shows i wanna watch, spend as much time with my friends, kare and family... and get enough rest.

xoxo Ei Leen xoxo

I miss

I miss my straight hair....
I miss my kare....

xoxo Ei Leen xoxo

Turkey guys... Not bad ar...

Pa acting strong...

Sista!? Nono...my aunt. = )

Turkey ice cream!!!! *yum*

My Bro... how old you think he is???

They're twins. See the difference? *hint* Their style of dressing.

Trojan horse, Turkey. A gift from the movie set.

= )

Ok…here we go… it’s gonna be a long one.

Well well, as you can see, I dun have much time nowadays to really blog. Either I’m too tired, a little tad lazy (which also means I rather sleep) or I’m really busy with all my commitments. In a blink of an eye, 5 weeks of semester came and gone, 2 weeks later, I’m gonna have my common tests.

Though I’m taking 3 modules, 2 are only tested for common tests, but I feel the 2 modules are quite a big load. Dunno why. Maybe cuz both are heavy subjects. Takes a lot of time to digest the facts and apply it. Maybe it’s the lecturer. ARGH! Especially the PSCT teacher. Gawd!! She makes everyone in the lecture go crazy. The best thing is, she says we’re too quiet in class. We don’t answer her when she asks us if we understood what she taught. And she keeps asking us to inform her (or speak up) if we don’t understand what she said. Well, when we answered no for both of those things, she gets impatient and very irritated with us. Like she’s wondering why we’re so stupid and can’t understand her. Geez. And I can’t stand the way she teaches. Haiyoh. It’s a wonder that I don’t scream in frustration during class. But I know I keep ‘tsking’. Lol. I know Pammie is quite annoyed with me for doing that. But I can’t help it. She keeps stuttering when she tries to explain the notes. ARGH. Enough. Later got KARMA. Lol. Proteomics is okay. Not bad. But it’s about proteins!!!! Argh. Proteins are like women. So complex. Ok. Not funny.

Well well, I did manage to take a small little break. Dunno if it’s considered a break cuz for the holiday, I kept walking and walking and walking..till my legs almost gave way. Managed to sneak into Hong Kong over the Vesak holiday. A little break for me since… last June when I went to Turkey. Well, shopped a lot and walked a lot too. Bought lots of stuffs but my favourite would have to be the coca cola cap earring. Lol. I think that’s my best buy. Oei Celeste, Von, Liyana…. Wemuz meet up 1 day k…wanna pass u guys stuffs. = )

Alicia girl! And Yx… Bought u guys stuffs also…but it’s errr… perishable. Gonna expire soon. So Pammie and I ate it up. Lol. Sorryyyyyyy……

Kare… Sorry to upset u these days. Dunno what’s going on with me… Distracted of some sort. I really dunno. Give me some time to adjust back. Maybe go to the root of the problem and sort it out soon. Hmm. Thanx for sticking with me and forgiving me and doing all the things for me. Thanx.

*hugz*

Well, had fun in the class today. Think I’m gonna miss my classmates when I graduate. The people from 2M01 2005 are really different from 1M05 2004. I dunno how to say it in words, but I’m really glad that I was able to meet the 2M01s. = ) Now that we’re in 3M02, well, with the ever ‘funky’ Pammie, life is never a bore, unless she’s tired and becomes grouchy. It’s such joy to have Pammie as one of my good friend. = ) *hugz*

xoxo Ei Leen xoxo

too lazy to post..

sorry.

Moody...cranky...

I dunno what's with me for the past 1 week. Ever since i screwed up the experiment during integrated lab on wed, i've not been my usual self. Tried to find peace by reading my books and spening time with kare, but nothing works. Training was boring. Having tennis trials for guys and girls., so the courts are like..packed with people.

First, integrated lab sux. To the core. SO MUCH INCUBATION TIME! GAWD. Wasting time while the plasmids are being cut up by enzymes. I felt like i was wasting my youth away. Hello?! The waiting time is not short... IL is 5 hrs each week. I spent like 4 hrs waiting for the plasmids tbe chopped up. 4 times 16 weeks... Uh oh... That's like.. sixty over hours!! I can do so much more stuffs! Anyway, Dr Koh changed the marking scheme and if you fail to get results during prac, that's it. 80% gone. HAHA......... Good luck to myself. I screwed up the 1st prac. Wheee!... In the end, went to redo on fri morning. Finally, got results, but my marks will still remain at 7/10 instead of 10/10. If not, Robz would have drown in my tears by now. Haha...

2ndly, training was boring. I wanna play tennis. I wanna hit...but.... SO many people! I feel like i'm trying to fight for a place to run in the courts. Haiz. Jail was quite fun until i got stuck in jail. Geez... Anyway, played my doubles for STA Open just now. Got raped again, by Rita and Sue. But it's alright la.. at least me and jas got some experience. Though Sue gave me her namecard. She's working in Research Laboratories!! CEO LEH!! Dun play play! Lol. So honoured to play against her. Haha... She offered me to look up for her next time when i graduate though! Sounds like i've a job waiting for me!! HEHHEH!! She's recruiting now though..but i'm still stuck at NP studying and wasting time during IL. So anybody wanna have this job..contact me ya! = ) Having Singles tomolo. Haiz. I hope i win. Truly, i wanna win.

Sorry kare. I know i've been such an a** this week. Sorry. *hugs and kisses*

Oh ya...i didn't get to go Malacca! Damn! Stupid Open.

xoxo Ei Leen xoxo

Geez...

*Sigh...

Holidays are ending in about....4 hours? Starting school tomorrow.. I dread, i dread. 2M01 got separated. I'm the only girl in 2M01 ending up in 3M02. WHY WHY WHY? Why am i always the one getting separated from my friends? Just when i settled in with my new classmates in 2M01. they had to separate me from half, nono, probable like 3/4 of them away from me. There's me, mick, don, kim heng, rus, yew teck and pam. These are the only people i know from my new class. Weord, there are biotech people in my class. WEIRD. Anyway, at least the more fun people are in my class... namely kim heng and his partner-in-crime. Hope we'll have fun during practicals again. = )

Booked my driving test. It's on 10th july. Hopefully common test is not during that period. It's a monday and i hope nothing clashes. Am spreading my remaining 5 lessons and 2 revisions from May to July. I WILL PASS MY DRIVING!! *Hopefully, hopefully.

Am going Malacca next week, during the labour day holiday. And then am off to Hong Kong on 12 may i think, for a short trip. Couldn't tahan the 'holiday' i'm suppose to have and asked my parents to PLEASE bring me out of singapore. Lol. Luckily they agreed. Yay! And i get to go HK. But i have to leave Kare behind. Haiz. Wish i could sneak him in my lugguage but....guess i couldn't. Hopefully he'll be able to get that part time job at john little.

Well well, gotta get mentally ready for school..... ciao.

xoxo Ei Leen xoxo

Dun nag at me anymore.... = )

Okee... Alot... and i emphasis ALOT of people has been nagging me to update me blog..

1. Cuz they thought i had MIA
2. They dunno what i'm doing nowadays

Now i go.... will blabber on for you guys to satisfy whatever cravings you have for me.. HAHA...

*winks*

The last time i posted was after exams if i'm not wrong. 'Holidays' started but not for the year 2 who were going onto year 3. Started my project at NUS. Currently doing on plants. It's quite simple actually, i think. Just extracting the protease and protease inhibitors, and characterising them into different classes od amino acids. Quite slack. Cuz my supervisor is quite slack on us. Really own time own target. Anytime you wanna go off and go off. So normally Pam and i start our experiments about 10 and we go home at 1 plus. Cool huh? But what's the point of going home early when Robz is still having work.

He damn poor thing... Attached to such a faraway place. Ok. I know S'pore is not very big.. but he's attached to DHL(Exel) which is like at the most eastern part of S'pore, more accurately, the air freight centre. But glad that he got along well with his colleagues. Not forgetting Junwei, who is one of his 'good' friend who is also attached there... who is also my *ahem* ex-crush. Anyway, holidays are ending soon and it's back to school time. Just had my tennis tournament a week ago. Lost. To a SUPER DUPER consistent player. Haiz. Wasted alot alot ALOT of points. Could have attacked much better. Will train up on attacking shots.

HAPPY NEWS TIME!! ROBZ WON DOUBLES!!! YAY!!! = ) So glad for him. He's the champion for men's doubles along with his partner Wilson. Wilson, I promise i'll go book my driving test soon along with Robz. = )

Kare! So proud of you. = ) *muack*

xoxo Ei Leen xoxo

Mug Mug Mug.....= (

My blog has been hibernating since..... i dunno when. Lolz.

Here's some updates. Exams next week. Am mugging night and day for it. Causing me to have breakouts. Losing quite alot of hair due to hairpulling when stressed and not meeting my Kare.. =` ( Miss u lots, Kare!

My poor kare! His wallet got stolen in the bus on the way for his dental appointment with me. In the end, no dental appointment and no wallet. He had exam in the afternoon too...That means he entered the exam hall without any form of identity (John Doe??). Lucky he was still able to do his exam which i dunno how he managed to identify himself. But hope he'll take it as a lesson learnt. DON'T LEAVE YOUR VALUABLES UNATTENTED OR CREATE AN OPPORTUNITY FOR OTHERS TO STEAL.

It reminded me of how i lost my beloved samsung handphone. Haiz. I guess i create an opportunity for others to steal. Kind of like presented a temptation for them. But now, i've learnt my lesson. Hope the person who stole my handphone or kare's wallet will soon regret, be remorseful and realise his/her own mistake before he/she makes another bigger mistake like robbing or shoplifting.

Talking about my old phone. My old phone was the purple/metallic version of Samsung E530C. Now it's the pink/white version of it cuz when i got the replacement phone, the purple one has sold out. Just thinking about this makes my blood boil. When i still had my purple phone, this 'classmate' of mine was commenting on how SHE had wanted to get the same phone but she loved the pink/white version better and said the purple looked like a very odd colour. Then i made a comment on how ugly the white looked cuz the purple version had purple metallic shell rather than the white shell. Lolz. Then unfortunately, i had to lose my beloved phone and had to settle with the pink/white. Guess what!!!!! On the last week of school, she walked into lecture hall and showed off her new samsung purple/metallic phone!! ARGH!!! That really infuriated me!!!! And one of my classmates looked at her phone and commented, 'Isn't this like Ei Leen's phone?' I was just sitting 2 rows behind her....I was fuming!!!!! She replied that she was aiming the E530c for a very long time. Ok...Whatever. Quoting from her, 'Zhe ge purple hen qi kuai leh', which literally means, the purple was quite a weird colour. Damn you. -_______-

Well, that was not the only incident that proves that she's a little..... irritating. Lolz. To those of you who knew me for quite awhile, you would have noticed that i would wear this red/green/black beads thing on my wrist. Suppose to be a necklace but i preferred them on my wrist, so i kinda twist it around my wrist which made it looked like a bundle of bracelets. Wore it quite often to school and out. Well, well, well, NO prizes for guessing!!!! She!!! That same girl who got the purple/metallic phone! She copied me!! She did the same thing as me!! She got a pink beaded necklace and twisted it around her wrist!! ARGH!!!!!! She wears it almost everyday.. wonder if she actually took it off when she bathes cuz it looked like she twisted the beads around her wrist too many times and looked stuck on her wrists forever. But... it's not like i care. Will she just stop following my fashion style?! It's not like i have a good fashion sense...but hello!! Stop copying me..... Please... have your own sense of style lar. Somehow at the start of joining this class, she was ok... but after a while...the more i see her, the more i don't like her. Argh!... Such a irritating girl. I know lots of people is starting not to like her cuz of her personality, character..whatever. Hope she realises why one day.... Somehow i hope she stumbles upon this site to read up alittle about herself here..but somehow, i wish she wouldn't... cuz i'm badmouthing her. But.... Aiyah.. whatever, i'm just spitting out my annoyance. It IS.. afterall, MY blog. = )

Good luck to those who'll be stuck with her in the same class or attachement...or whatever in the future. Damn.. hope i'm not the one.

Attachment starting soon. 6 March. Right after exams end. I have only a weekend to enjoy myself. = ( So bloody short. Argh... my supervisor is another problem! Pammie~! We're gonna suffer under her hands! =' ( Hope nothing goes wrong.

Started my driving lessons. Learning manual. Driving's fun! Surprisingly, the instructors were not that bad. Not like some people who described them as DOM (Dirty Old Man). They were actually quite friendly and my lessons had been going smoothly except for this malay guy who kept dozing off during my 7th lesson. I wondered if my ride was so smooth until he manages to doze off. *scratches head*

Whee! Has a blast yesterday. Met up with my bunch of closest friends fom secondary school. Finally! We managed to gather as 5 of us again! Like what.. after 2+ years! Had a great time. Felt really good to see them again. Lynette!! Liyana! Missed you guys alot! Was really very reluctant to leave..but i had to mug for exams. Nette! Muz remember our backpacking trip yar? Heh heh... = ) We'll go exotic places! Lolz. Once again, thanx guys..... for the happy moments. Will load up the photos once i get from Von.

K. Back to mugging again. OHOH!! Thanx Mirza..for the mortal kombat games. Had a fun time playing it! Heh heh... really addictive. I LOVE Fatality! Lolz...

xoxo Ei Leen xoxo

At my aunt's house for dinner

muack muack!

dun push me!

In malaysia

The 5 of us~!

We've done it!

Our fondue stall was okay.... it's alright lar...

Though i fell sick on the day itself and that night itself. = (

Now to welcome the new year, i'm sick. = (

Robz just had a surgery on his right calf...Now he has a size of 50 cent coin hole on his calf. His right leg is slightly smaller than his left now. My poor KARE!!! Tears flowed when i left him on monday night to go home when he was scheduled for emergency surgery at the stroke of midnight. He had to undergo general anesthetic. Poor thing!! = (

But glad it was over and he was discharged the next day. Now he has to clean his wound everyday, which hurts like hell.....

Haiz!! Poor thingy....

Will load up my fondue stall photo...

Enjoy the new year ppl... Enjoy the goodies~!

xoxo Ei Leen xoxo

Tired!~!!!

I wanna sleep...... I wanna sleep...... I wanna sleep...... I wanna sleep...... I wanna sleep...... I wanna sleep...... I wanna sleep...... I wanna sleep...... I wanna sleep...... I wanna sleep...... I wanna sleep...... I wanna sleep...... I wanna sleep...... I wanna sleep...... I wanna sleep...... I wanna sleep...... I wanna sleep...... I wanna sleep...... I wanna sleep...... I wanna sleep...... I wanna sleep......

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Man... i'm so tired i keep collasping in the bus on the way home from school. Bus ride in the morning is not that bad...but when coming home, i'm struggling to keep my eyes open.....- ___-

I guess it's not as bad as my bro whom goes to work at 8 and comes home at 6.30am. Lol. Now that's bad! Guess the CNY is around the corner, lots of companies struggling to audit their accounts. Poor thing.

Lots of stuffs going on. 2 projects due next week, PLS people!! Come support me at my Choco fondue stall. = ) Promise it'll be delicious!!! Cuz i'll be the one preparing the chocolate! = P *Yumz* Another project due after CNY, 2 common tests after CNY. Wah piang. How to enjoy my new year?!

Sorry dear friends!! Really no time to go out with u guys... I'll try to make time soon k. Lol...= )

Dear friends... enjoy the coming CNY celebrations!! *Ooo! My fringe has grown longer.. haha.. not as weird as b4. Lol.

Take care Licia, Yx and Pammie darlings...= )

xoxo Ei Leen xoxo

Err...

I went to do my hair today. I looked like a barbie doll with shoulder length hair! Lolz. Er.... Don'tthink everyone can accept my new look...haha.. Not even me. = P

But hope i'll grow to like and eventually love it..since it's er... my hair...

Hope it gets better when CNY approaches.

Tomorrow starting school again...!!! = (

Miss my Kare lots..

xoxo Ei Leen xoxo

*BIG Smiles*

Hellllll ya!!!!....I'm definitely feeling better these days. Maybe i'm just trying to take things easier. No hard feelings whatever.... No holding on to grudges or whatsoever. Life seems to be much easier. It's especially nice to meet and hug Kare after such a stressful period. Yay! I'm going blading tomorrow with him and his cousin. Went blading last friday too. Had so much fun suaning his cousin cuz he doesn't know how to blade. Taught his gf too. Both of them so cute lorz. His cousin is 30yrs old btw. Haha... Zhen shi huo dao lao xue dao lao.. Heh heh...

Whee...just finished my common test today. I seriously dislike this semester. Hello?! Every module is a memorising thing. DNA, machines and cell culture medium sterile techniques are fixed. So what's left to LEARN? Nothing. It's fixed, nothing else to be discovered anymore. Just memorise and vomit all out during exams. = )

Since it's over, time to enjoy! And it's time to embrace another coming holiday! Chinese New Year! Wah!! Imagine all the bak kuas, pineapple tarts and all the new year goodies i get to enjoy! Heh heh... Sure put on weight la. Nvm. I need to alter my new year dress. Tried it on the other day and argh!!! I looked pregnant! There's so much extra cloth around my waist. Need to go alter to a smaller size. = P

Wooo! Saw Dao king today. He really lived up to his nickname. *rolls eyes* I was sitting barely 1 metre away from him on the bus and i was invisible to him until i poked him hard on the arm. Haha~! He deserved it. Always so dao. *Hmpf* But glad to see him after such a long time. Wonder what's he doing now for studies....Hmm..

Oh dear...i miss Kare sooooooooooooo much..... *hugz Kare tightly*

xoxo Ei Leen xoxo