Hmmm....

Went to test drive car today with my family. CRV is definitely a better choice than RAV4.

Was late to go watch Robz match today at Kallang. Lost though, hope he'll take it easy.

Went to his house to take a look at my hamsters... Gin & Tonic. They're Sapphire breeds. Damn cute. Saw the damage they did to the house in less than a week. The corner of the roof was already bitten off... Thinking of getting them a wooden house. We wanna make it like safari theme. Love their names though! Gin and Tonic~~... So cool~! Was actually thinking about Snap and Pearl--- 'Snapple'? Vodka Vanilla etcetc... Haha... But decided on Gin and Tonic... Gin's the gal, Tonic's the guy...

Ooo.. thanx to Nessie and Alicia for the pet shops thingy. Went to Parkway in the end. Things there are definitely cheaper than Pet Safari at Simei... Thanx alot gals!~ = )

Was reading some stuffs about Adam and Eve, Garden of Eden and tree of wisdom. Lately, Robz has been going to church again. He's asking me to join him. Was thinking about it...haven't really made a choice yet. I don't wish for anyone to force me to 'enter' a religion. I mean, i DO have a choice right? And i do have God to back me up on everyone has a choice to choose.

Why did God put the tree in the garden, if he didn't want Adam and Eve to eat from it?

Wouldn't all the subsequent problems have been avoided if Adam and Eve couldn't get to the tree?
If God had constructed the Garden of Eden so that there were no rules and no way for Adam and Eve to do wrong, then Adam and Eve would be effectively forced to obey God. In order for us to be free - which in this case refers to the freedom to follow or ignore God - we have to be able to make choices. Adam and Eve couldn't have chosen to follow God if they literally had no other choice.

So.... I'm still pondering... I mean, i have so many questions. They need to be answered before i decide on anything.....

xoxo Ei Leen xoxo

Sighz....

*Phew* So much has happened.. i don't know where to start...

Firstly, met Celeste on Wed to get pressie for Vonnie's 18th bday. I don't update myself on the 'in' colour but somehow, i learnt my lesson to be more 'fashion- updated' the next time i choose to wear something. Eg~~> Wore a green top out, coincedently, Celeste wore a green top too! And guess what? It's green day!! We spotted like what? 3 dozens of people wearing green too! Quite embarrassing and awkward to see someone wearing the same shade of green walking past you like every 30 secs. I may have exaggerrated a lil', but wth...!!! According to Celeste, it's spring! So green IS in! (So i've heard...) When i told Robz about my green day, guess what?! He was wearing green too! -_____-''' How.....Green....

Btw, 'Amercian Idiot' is a nice song... Lolz...

Oh well, finally got to meet Celeste. Lots to yak about... We both agree that our fashion sense had definitely changed after entering poly. Anyway, glad to have met up after almost 5 to 6 months. Met Vonnie today too!

Happy Belated 18th Bday! Hoped you like the pressie.

Really happy to meet them again after so long. Finally managed to catch up. Kind of envy Robz and his best friend Steven. I mean, they catch up like more often than me and my secondary school friends. And they're guys! For heaven's sake! Shouldn't girls be doing all the meeting ups and catching ups more often than guys? Haiz... But at least every now and then, we still manage to catch up. Hope we'll still remain in contact. I still remember during sec 4 what Lynette wrote for her compo exam or test, about the future. She said she imagined what the 5 of us would be. That would be Me, herself, Celeste, Vonnie and Liyana. Some become housewives, business women and blahblahblah... Can't believe she could actually write that for an exam or test, i couldn't remember. But it was unbelievable. Lolz...

Missed the time the 5 of us had... The wonderful times... Me, walking with Lynette home... Eating Ben and Jerry's ice cream! Cookie dough ice cream from Shell Station! Lolz... Those were the timeeeeessss........

Went swimming with Alicia darling yesterday morning. Weather was not that good, but at least it was not scorching hot! It was actually drizzling? But i wondered how i actually managed to get darker... But the real mystery was i even got sunbunrt on my cheeks! It's like.....pinkish red? ?!??!?!?!? I don't know why..........?_?

But had a good time with girl... Finally met up after 4 weeks of hols... Haha... Except for that time for passing my bottle back and Webby almost got knocked down... -___-'''

Oh!!! Happy Belated 18th Bday Mirza!! *Bleah*

Couldn't sleep, so decided to blog after MIA for so long... Haha...= )

Chill everyone!

xoxo Ei Leen xoxo

Isn't it weird?!

Geez! I think i'm so going to throw away my blue tennis shorts! It's bringing me bad luck!

Argh~! !#$$#%@^^&*^

Everytime i wear that pair of shorts, something terrible will definitely happen to me in the tennis court. From what i remember, 1st time was when i tripped in Safra tennis court. Tripped over myself i think. The 2nd time i fell was in kallang. Fell on my butt somemore, in front of the whole tennis team. ARGH! Juz thinking about it makes me feel stupid and embarrassed. 3rd time was when Robz 'ACCIDENTALLY' smashed the ball onto my head. Pain until i cry. *Ow* Now! This is the 4th time. Argh!

Hurt my hip bone, palms, scratches on my knee and elbow. Supposedly, while retrieving a forehand from my bro, i stepped onto a stray ball. ARGH!

I'm not superstitious. But this is so damn weird!

Anybody up for swimming??

xoxo Ei Leen xoxo

Got lost today... Again?

It was a close call. Met Alicia today so i could have my bottle back. Kind of bu4 xi2 guan4 w/o it. She brought Webby and Yoko to show me but just before 5 steps from saying hi to her, Webby escaped from her leash and ran to the road!! OMG! Gave me and Alicia a heart attack! Managed to save Webby! *Phew* Lucky the traffic light was red and cars were slowing down... It was a huge sigh of relief. Alot of thanx to Alicia for the thoughtful thought of bringing her 2 dogs to show me. Really appreciated it. *Thanx girl*...

I don't know how to start, but from here on, i'm just gonna type what pops up in my mind. Really appreciated Alicia's gesture today. I may only know how to say 'thanx girl', but inner soul just wanna hug her, squeeze her and return her a BIG favour. But i juz don't know how to express myself, i guess. *Shrugs*

Robz said something to which brought up my some things i tried to bury at the back of my head. I thought i had done enough to push it back... But somehow, it kind of just stuck in my head...again. Not blaming Robz, but yea...made me kinda feel at loss now... Again..

I'm not sure if anybody agrees with me, but i think it's the way we're brought up? You know, the eastern way and the western cultural differences? Like how the westerners are more expressive than the asians... Our affectional level may be no difference but the expressive factor is definitely much lower than them. Agree? E.g. Kid hugs and pecks on parents whenever they need to part, kid may be going to college in other country or may be juz going to school. They hug. Why aren't the asians doing this? We, or maybe just me, just say, 'Mummy, i'm going out already.' Where's the goodbye hugs and pecks on cheek?

We may not know it, but what if something happens while you're out and would you want words or touch( hugs) to be the last thing you give to your mum and dad? I remembered the time when my bro and i had to give a 'thank you' speech during the celebration of my parent's anniversary in front of my relatives. My bro blahed everything, but i was speechless. I was about 14 or 15 i think. I didn't know how to do it but i said a simple thank you to them. I couldn't do it, i could not say it out loud that i appreciated them alot, wanted to thank them for nurturing me, their precious time taking care of me. Simply, i just wanna give them BIG hugs and never wanna let them go. For now, i feel like giving them hugs... And just wanna let them know i'm really thankful for having them as my parents.

I get emotional whenever i see them quarrel. Simply becuz, why get angry with each other over petty stuffs when u guys can spend the time, feeling happy, cuddling with each other and show your love openly. I seriously don't mind if my parents are watching TV in the living room and my father just wanna kiss my mum or put his arms around her or wanna take a romantic getaway. Hmm.. I've never seen them kiss before!! Haha... PLEASE LEH! Don't just hold hands! Be more affectionate and be more open leh! -_____-''' There's seriously nothing wrong in doing that! What if you know it's your last day on earth tomorrow? Are we gonna start regreting and think why didn't i do that? It's not just between a couple's love, there are many different relationships in my life that i think i've not shown enough concern. I may look oblivious to these relationships, but they're actually more important and hold more meaning to my inner soul than anyone could have imagined.

I kinda regret that i don't show enough concern to my parents, friends and aunt. I can't just go around hugging these people simply because it doesn't work this way here, in Singapore, in this eastern culture influences. I mean, how often do you see us, asians hugging relatives goodbye in the airport? The more often actions are, 'Bon vogage!', 'Have a good trip!' or 'Have fun and enjoy your trip!'. What if we're never able to see each other again? Would i want words to be the last thing i say to other person? I would much rather have a long tight hug or a pat on the back or a simple gesture like patting my hand or something like that. Of cuz, if there's no touch, i guess words would be better than nothing.

I prefer to lead my life simple and no complications. I believe that even though i may not get to experience life's highest high, as long as i go to bed everyday, contented that i did not regret on anything, happy that everyone around me is happy, glad that i did my best in everything that i COULD do to make everyone and myself satisfied, live life to the fullest everyday, I would have gone to my next life happily. Of cuz, i havent achieved what i wanna achieve. That is, make a difference in this world. Maybe be a helping hand in the research of cancer or some disease or what. That would be my drive towards life. Of cuz, i would not go happily if i really die tomorrow because i AM regretting that i'm not showing enough concern and appreciation to my parents. I'm still liberating how to do that. Should i just hug them now? Or what? I don;t know. Saw Robz hugging his parents just before they left for a trip. Have i ever done that??

What's gonna happen after death? Why do i exist? In my opinion, it's to experience life. To experience life's ups and downs and feel how is it like. And to make a difference in this world. This is what i believe. That's my drive towards life. That's what i live for. Some may not agree with my motto in life and may even lose faith and lose direction in life. But i truly believe in myself and not in religions or what..... Sorry to religion followers, but that's what i think. That's my view towards life. It doesn't matter what happens after death, because i know that when i'm gone, i know that i would not regret on existing.

Of cuz, i can only say that when i think i managed to make a difference in this world and not regretted on any of my actions.

xoxo Ei Leen xoxo

Can u see the shape of mother earth? If can't, i can tell u it's ROUND...heh heh...

Birthday boy!!

SoOoOoooo not my day today.... Saded...

The day didn't happened what i wanted it to be...

First of all, the day before, i wanted to have Robz mom's permission to come over early in the morning, guess she understood cuz it's his bday today. She said, 'why not?' I was like... Okee!! Hoped and prayed hard that things will go as planned. But guess what!? It definitely went the opposite direction! Juz thinking about it makes me feel embarrassed and wanna dig a hole and hide there forever and ever~~...

First, he has a tournament going on and had been going to matches about 3 days in a row already. So i assumed he'll wake up at 11am as usual so i thought i popped by at 10.30am to surprise him. But guess what, his maid thought he got no match today and woke him up at 10! ARgh! I was late! So when i sneaked up to his house...... BOY! Was i SO EMBARRASSED! And he juz finished his breakfast! ARGH!!!!! NO MORE SURPRISE! Haiz..... SO SAD.....

Gave him the slice of cake-- Didn't want him to get fat and indigestion-- later cannot play match properly. And guess what! The slice of cake toppled down!! So had to poke the stupid candle in the middle of the cake while the cake was lying down on the side! ARGH!!!!! Things had to go wrong at that point of time! It was damn weird k.... And i started tearing cuz everything didn't go as i planned!!! *Screams in horror* I'm so worried that he'll not be happy, i mean?? Hello!!! 1st no surprise?? Then the cake collasped?!........ but he said he was VERY HAPPY.... But.. wth.... unfortunately, things didn't go MY way! WHYYYYY100000000x?!?!?!!?~~!?!?!

Had lunch at home... went to ECP for a walk... Nice day for walking! Cuz it was after rain... breezy and not sunny. I thought the day was gonna get better... u know? Like bad start in the morning....then as the day goes on... things get better? But apparantly... IT DID NOT! Horrors and horrors!

Went to McDonald's to get ice creams.... I had vanilla cone and he had mcflurry. Took 2 bites of mine and turned around to get out of the place. But guess what!? The cone flew out of my hand!!!! OH GAWD! The scene was like a little kid's cone flew and the whole ice cream was juz ruined? You know? Like the top of the ice cream was flat down on the floor? Haiz!!!!!...... Damn demoralised!~~~ WHY?!?! Why has it got to be this way?! Decided to get a seat in Mac to calm my nerves... But got restless.. so walked out. But on the way out, saw the Mac staff mopping the floor.... and HE HAD TO POINT TO ME THE 'WET FLOOR, PLEASE BE CAREFUL' SIGN!!! ARGH!!!!.... I was on the verge of crying already!!! But didn't want people to think i was crying because of a ruined ice cream...It was lunchtime hour, so it was quite crowded... HAIZ! TAHAN!

I was getting SO DAMNED DEMORALISED! But he said i was damn cute....the way i reacted in those stupid situations. WTH! CUTE! I WAS SO SAD! But wanted him to be happy today cuz it's his day....So.....kept everything to myself... and kept my cool...~

I was lucky that the day went by smoothly without glitches.....*PHEW*.... And he won! So he's gonna play with the no. 2 seed tomorrow... Wish him luck and hope everything goes well.... Hope he'll play well.... and not be too tired tomorrow....

*Sighz* I'm so damn tired! To and fro his house for don't know how many days.... Exhausting man.... Really touched by what he said to his mom in the car today. Was going back to his house after the match and i was resting.. closing eyes cuz i was literally DRAINED OUT... But i was still conscious. His mum saw me 'sleeping' and conversation went like this,

M: Wow, really tired huh?
R: Yar, probably.
M: Want me to send her to MRT now?
R: Nah, she got her stuff in the house.
M: Oh, but still can drop her off if she's too tired.
R: Nah, the most i carry her back home. (Everybody please *Awwww*)
M: Wah... so da4 fang1( gracious) ar? First time leh... (Please *AWWWWW* even louder!! Haha..)
R: Really meh? *Chuckles*

Haha...so sweet huh... i was tearing at the back of the car... Haha....yah... but i know he's damn tired today. Considering he played 5 matches in 4 days, today played 3 sets somemore... So yar, feel kinda guilty whenever he walked me to bus stop cuz he still have to squeeze energy out to walk the 1.5km route to the bus stop. He kinda worried for me cuz my eyes were red today...due to...tearing and tiredness... But it was all worth it... It's for him...

The sky was nice today... Lotsa stars to admire! Very lovely... Nice ending to this day....

Love him lots... Hope he enjoyed his day though...

xoxo Ei Leen xoxo

See?? This is East Coast! No kidding! Nice rightz?

*Bleah*

Weeee...good day good day~! It's our 6th month today.

08/04/05

Seems like yesterday i just typed in my blog that i said yes to him on 08/10/04. And i just announced to the listeners of thesurfersbabe radio station (Eunice or Pammie created tt, i can't rmb who).

Woah...Time really passes damn fast... Gonna be year 2 soon. And my tennis senior just told me how that we need to kill mice! Ahhhh~! *Freaking out* He say when u kill the mice, you use the forceps and grab the tail or neck and just pull. Argh!!! Gross! So pain!!! Poor mice!

But i guess we just have to do it...argh! Sick!

So old liao! ARgh~! Must be more responsible already... Plus i wanna learn driving and stuff.... Haiz.

Kiyo dearie~~ Sorry that i keep blowing u off... sorry.. will make it up to u...i promise!

xoxo Ei Leen xoxo

Wheee~~!!

Spent 3 consecutive days with him...Lolz.. Happy happy happy~!

Went to tpy library on mon to look for books to read. Gawd. The library is so damn lousy. There's absolutely nothing to borrow there. No Judith McNaught, Susan Elizabeth Philip, Sidney Sheldon, Nicholas Sparks nor Dan Brown! Not even comics are available. Bored! But lucky he's there to accompany me. Though we spend so much time together, i still can't seem to get enough of him. Miss him like crazyyy...

Watched Constantine at his house on tues. Hm...Very confusing show. Thank gawd there's him to narrate the story for me during the whole show. Without him, i would not be able to understand what is it about, with my meagre knowledge of how heaven, hell, angels and demons work.

Went blading with him today. We kana sunburnt lor! Even though it's like what...2 hours in the sun only?! Okok! it was like 11 to 1 plus lar...but still?!... What the... So i'm like redder than ever. With the recent Sentosa outing and now?!....

-_____-'''

But weather was PEEERRRFECT... Though we experienced both ends of the weather, it was a damn sweet day for us. Hehheh... With the day starting bright and sunny, it was a great day for blading! Yay! And the sea was damn beautiful today! There's like clear waters, really clear blue-green waters on our East Coast shores today! I'm not lying! It's true! Will post pics next time. Went to his house and showered. Rained in the afternoon though. But since both of us were hungry, went to 7-11 for snacks. The instant mashed potato was actually quite good! Suprisingly. The walk there and back from 7-11 was damn sweet. Since it was like drizzling, we're both huddled until the umbrella all the time, keeping each other warm. SUCH A NICE FEELING! Sorry for all the gushiness but it was really good! = P

It was a damn nice start to the 7 weeks of holiday! Woohoo.... Damn happy... I feel so blessed with him.

Oh yar, we were walking back to his house after blading when we were crossing the road at VJC. The green man was on and there was like 12 secs left when we were still about 3 steps away from reaching the other side. Then this old man popped out from the side of the road, ok..imagine we're walking and facing the other side of the road, then this old man zoomed past us on his bike like from left to right, can imagine? Yar, anyways, we were taking our time to cross the road lar, Robz was on his blades, i was not cuz i don't want to blade up and down the overhead bridge. But since he so PRO, it's like a small matter to him. Back to topic--, yar, this old man zoomed past us and shouted, 'WAH, walk so slow somemore!' I was like huh?!?! *Stare at Robz then the old man-- But he was quite far cuz he's on bicycle. I was like..what the? I thought Robz knew the guy but apparantly he did not? There's like still 12 secs what! What's wrong?! Really pyscho lor! I mean? What was that about?! Shouted at us somemore. What the. Never mind. Crazy man.

Eek! I miss Alicia darling and Xia~!!! Xia~...u working ar? Work as what? and where? Don't tire yourself out k... Love ya guys!

xoxo Ei Leen xoxo

Hmmm...

Went Sentosa yesterday with classmates. Alvin came too...very cool magic tricks i should say. Yan Xia would definitely agree with me. Right? Haha... Very impressed. Really got me awed. Had fun though, played the hantam something, forgot what's the name. Real tiring, considering i didn't eat anything except for 4 potato chips and a handful of mini cheezeballs. Had my tan, but i'm not happy with it cuz like not much difference. But my face is red larz. Had to leave early to go meet him. Terrible things happened. But i'm glad the day ended pretty well.

Really miss him alot. Haiz. Hope to see him sooooonnn....

Woke up at 5.45am today to go Jemaluang, Malaysia for Qing Ming. So i'm reallllllllllyyyy shagged right now. Cause went to play tennis during the evening. Plus, i juz came back from celebrating my papa's birthday. He wanted to go this french restaurent in Chijmes, but apparantly it closed down. So went to OchoBar for Spanish food instead. It was good. But service was waaaayyyyyy bad. 0/5. Lol~.

Proceeded to Cafe Cartel for dessert at RafflesCity. Saw Andrea, Pammie's friend. And apparantly she didn't recognise me. Conversation went smthing like tt,

E: u're andrea right?
A: Err...huh?
E: Er..(Thinking~ hope i did not recognise the wrong person *prays hard*).. From ngee ann right? LSCT?
A: Er...yarr..(proceeded to put down my dessert)
E: Er... we're lecturemates????????? Pamela's friend??????
A: (Gives me blur looks)....Orh..okkkk...
E: Er....nvm..... Thanx( when she finshed putting down my desert)

SO PAISEH. -____-''' Nvm.....

All this happened in front of my parents.... Haiz,,,saded...But nvm... swear i'll never say hi to anyone from Np again unless they tok to me first. HMPF!

xoxo Ei Leen xoxo

!@#@$@#%^$%^@#

Why am i such a dumb, insensitive, worthless, good-for-nothing gf?

To think i thought it was alright to go out with a guy. Alone. And it's not him. I thought he said it was ok. So i assumed everything was fine. Boy, was i ever wrong.

I know.

I'm an evil person.

I'm not a good gf.

Damn it. I made him suffer. What the hell.

xoxo Ei Leen xoxo