Thank you Lord

Let me start with a word of prayer.

Thank you Lord, for you have provided much strength and wisdom to me for the last 3 months, that i'm able to complete my thesis and experiments in time. Thank you for blessing me with great friends (Robz, Alicia, Jess, Liz, Jereme, Erica, Curtis, Nick, Boi, Glenn, Simon, Aaron, Pearlyn, Wayne, Derek, Ria and many more) who have supported me, giving me encouragements, prepared my meals.. Thank you Lord, that you have blessed me with them, that i may complete my honours year smoothly. In Jesus' name, i pray. Amen.

Gosh...! I finally submitted my thesis. It only dawned unto me 5 hours after i submitted my thesis at the office before i felt any relief. I think my stress hormones were at an all time high that i needed that long to finally realised i'm almost done. I'm left with my presentation on 28th May and i'll be done with my honours. Can't wait, but i seriously dread the Q and A.

Honours year has been a great learning experience. I really needed to dig up all my passion and desires for the love of research to drive and spur me to go through this honours project. And i did have fun! Of course, that is with the help of my labmates and supervisor who never fail to accompany me when i'm doing experiments and with the much-dreaded writing of thesis. I still love research... It's great to discover God's work. = ) To me.. Science and religion work in parallel. They just speak in a different language. It's so amazing to discover the works of God.

Oh... And i really want to apologise to those around me who have seen my grouchiness when i'm super tired. I'm really sorry if i have neglected to care for you guys when you people were having assignments due and exams to sit for, and i forgot or i didn't give you much encouragemments to go on. I apologise if i seemed to have gone into my own research world and forgot about you guys. And i also apologise for my behaviour if i have been really eccentric and don't seem to care about you guys when i was really busy with my work. Especially to kare, who had to endure my 'crap' for the past.... 3 months. (I love you, thank you for being so patient and understanding) I apologise once again and thank you all, for being so patient and understanding with me. You know who you are.

It's funny how your mind is able to control the body. I know i was going to fall sick somehow, some day. And i knew that my immune system was really low last week. But, i forced myself to think that i am well, drank tons of water and spurred myself to go on until i submit my thesis. I didn't fall ill, but i could feel my body was weak. Now that i've weathered the storm, and i'm 'allowed' to fall sick, the next thing i knew... Why are my eyes, lips and neck radiating heat?? ARGH! Fever.

Another good example of how strong the mind is, over the flesh. This was reported in the science world (i don't think it's published in the news though, because it might cause too much controversy). There was a man who was diagnosed with lung cancer and the doctor told him he had only 6 months to live. 6 months later, the man died. But when the coroner did an autopsy on the man, he did not die of lung cancer, nor any cancer of sorts. See how strong the mind is? This was told by my supervisor as our lab is researching on the effects of stress. Stress can do harm to the body in many ways... may it be psychologically or physically. He reckons the patient died of stress, as well as being depressed due to the bad news. It's a wonder how strong the mind can be.

Now that honours is almost over, i still have other things to stress. What now???.. After my honours year... Another major decision to make. Another stage of life to proceed.... decisions....why can't someone just decide for me?

Dear Lord, I pray that you'll give me much-needed wisdom to make these important decisions.

xoxo Ei Leen xoxo