Baptism

Was going through my church's blog created by Keiyeng. The following was adapted from her entry on 17 oct (fri)... Thought it was meaningful to share with my non-christian readers, and also to help them understand why i got baptised and what does baptism mean...

What is Christian baptism?

Baptism isn’t magic. It doesn’t have any power in itself and it doesn’t make a person a Christian. Rather, it’s a symbol, a representation of the amazing and powerful things that God has done for a new Christian.

Baptism symbolises cleansing. Christians put their trust in Jesus to clean or wash away the shame, guilt, and penalty of our rebellion against God (which the Bible calls sin). Acts 22:16

Baptism also symbolises new life. Going under the water represents a Christian’s dying to their sin, and coming up out of the water represents Christians being raised to a new life of trusting and following Jesus – living with and for him, rather than for self. Romans 6:1-14

Again, baptism doesn’t make you saved by Jesus; rather it’s a way to show that you have been, through trusting in Jesus. Ephesians 2:8-9 tells us clearly that Jesus saves us by his initiating grace alone, not by ANY rite, ritual, or good work we do. So baptism is like a wedding ring – it’s the outward symbol of the already-present inner commitment of Jesus’ saving love for you and your response of love and obedience to Him.

xoxo Ei Leen xoxo

I hate my mouth... it happened again.

I posted this entry on 12 march 2008...

"I think i'm hurting alot of people by what i sprouted out of my mouth. Sometimes, i see their hurt expressions on their faces and i feel really guilty. What am i to do now? I can't take back the words i said... all i can say is... sorry..."

..and sh**... my bloody mouth rattled off things again... without going through my puny brain.

I hate it. I hate to keep trying to say sorry and be forgiven. It sucks.

xoxo Ei Leen xoxo

fuming mad

fuming mad with myself

i'll just shut up from now on.

xoxo Ei Leen xoxo

A great loss, now it is only a memory -This is dedicated to you, my friend-

I never knew this is how i would feel after losing a treasured friendship. I never ever, and i mean NEVER EVER did i ever foresee that this was how it was going to be. Our whirlwind friendship... it only started last year, and it barely lasted a year.

However, all was not lost. I really treasured the chemistry, the good times that we had. I can never imagine that i would find a person so 'like' me. It was seriously 'Leong Ei Leen, but the male version'. Ok... i made him sound like a transsexual, maybe i'm the one like him, but in the female version. Why did things have to end in such an ugly way?

I pray to God, almost everyday, asking Him if i had made a huge mistake in taking a break from our friendship. I think about my biggest mistake almost everyday. I really miss the friendship that we had.

I knew it was not fair to him, but it was all i could think of to stop the mess from getting even messier. Things really got complicated and i really want to put a stop to it. I was tired from untangling all the knots, running away from the knots, giving the knots another chance, coming back to untangle more knots and running away again. Why did it have to become so complicated?

Why can't we just be really good and really close friends? Someone that i can turn to when i have problems, someone i can turn to for advice, someone to hang out with when i need company or when i'm bored, someone i can call to meet up for a quick lunch, someone i can meet up when i need a friend to talk to...

I think i lost one of the most precious finds that could ever be found. I know i should live with no regrets. But there's nothing i can do now. I can't turn back time. I can't erase the past. I just have to live with it.

My biggest regret.

xoxo Ei Leen xoxo

I shouldn't--

I should not let these small little things get to me.

Why should i make myself unhappy/grouchy/moody/grumpy and also cause the people around me to be unhappy/feel gloomy/worried about me?

I shouldn't.

It's not worth it.

xoxo Ei Leen xoxo

Freaking out!!

Freaking out 1000000x!!!!

xoxo Ei Leen xoxo

Attention!

Kanojo--

She needs ATTENTION, love, care and concern as well.

xoxo Ei Leen xoxo

photo album 'out and about' updated.

http://picasaweb.google.com/esdilays11/OutAndAbout

xoxo Ei Leen xoxo