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ARGHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I want to vent my anger. I just can't stand it.
ARRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Why does it seem like he doesn't understand me anymore?! He made me more angry by asking me WHY!! ARGH! Idiota!!

WHY WHY WHY?! I want to know why i'm feeling this way too!..............

Maybe i hate changes. But why must things change?! Why can't it be the same all the time?! Why do people have to change? Why do some people have to go back on their words?! Why can't i just remain 17 all the time?!

WHY!?

I hate change.

xoxo Ei Leen xoxo

Sheesh.....!

I broke down in Kallang Tennis court today. I sound like a crybaby. But i couldn't help it. Was psychoing myself not to let emotions take over me but... the tears just spilled. The guys were bullying me. Thought i was used to it after 1 1/2 years...but still, it took an effect plus i wasn't playing that well today.... So.... Yea.... Haiz....

The girls team is pathetic. There's only 2 girls.

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Anyway... The ride home was horrendous!*Horrors and horrors!!* So many lightnings! And i mean ..... Damn scary lightnings. Can even see the streaks!... Horrors! There were so many of them. Don't even feel safe in the interchange..... Thunders were damn loud too... Argh.. Where is he when i need him?

.........

xoxo Ei Leen xoxo

An eye opening day.... Maybe only a lil'....

Okee... interesting day. Ok, night. It was an interesting night.

Robz and Jensen came over. Robz recently joined a company.... You can say he's a -learninginprogress- marketing agent. Lolz. Well, the only reason i let him join is that he'll be learning a skill, which of course, is marketing. Pssst! Btw... I hate marketers. Maybe it's because i lack a sweet tongue, that's why i'm jealous of them, i guess. But somehow, i just don't have a good impression of them. Yar..... Anyway, had them over so that Robz could have a chance to practise to present the product to my family. But.... He failed. Terribly, in my opinion. *Sorry kare. But that's what i think. Yea... Maybe you can interact well with strangers but somehow can't relate well with strangers.

This whole thing reminded me about myself about 1 1/2 years ago when i went for a interview for a position as a Dental Assistant. Hello?! My parents used to nag at me to brush my teeth, don't eat so much sweets. Used to bluff the school nurse that i have my own dentist to skip dental appointments blahblahblah. Okeee....i fear the dentist. So now what? Be a dental nurse? Lolz. But still i decided to try it out with the encouragements of my parents and aunt. Go, they said. Try it out. Learn more skills and how to interact with customers blahblah. Learn to have a boss. Hey! I really enjoyed working there! I've learnt so much things that i could never learn from the textbooks.

Like how to multi-task. I must learn to assist the dentist, hand him instruments, prepare the procedures in operations while answering phonecalls or even handle a patient that's waiting for his/her appointment outside. Hey! I lost so much weight while i was there! Think about 4 kg. Cuz i've to run round the clinic, handle suppliers, take stock, wash instruments, take appointments, be aware of fussy or impatient patients, blahblahblah. It was really great! I learnt so much! And i'm surprised that i actually enjoyed the experience.

So... As for Robz. I hope that he's not in it just for the money but also for the things that he'll eventually learn. Like how to handle different customers, how to handle crisis and must remember to do homework! Homework as in... know the product until like it's your own palm. When i was a dental nurse, i MUST know my facts very well. I must know what happens to gums and teeth when this happens or when that happens. Cuz you'll never know what the customer or patient will ask. Trust me, people do ask the weirdest questions. Basically, i must know about 85% of what the dentist learnt in medical school. Lol. So.... For Robz, maybe he has to know the scientific basis of the product blahblahblah... basically, know the product until like you're the one who invented it. You must also learn how to convince or assure your customer blahblah... The presentation and the overalls. The way to handle different kind of questions... Most importantly, you must be versatile. Able to think damn fast and shoot damn fast answers. Yea... It's definitely a damn good skill to learn. Definitely a damn difficult skill to master too. I totally agree that it's very difficult to be versatile and learn how to handle different kinds of situation, cuz you'll never know what kind of people you're gonna meet. So we must learn the different kind of approaches on how to placate or assure or convince a person.

Anyway..... Tonight just reminded me of how i stepped into the real world 1 1/2 years ago. I've seen the ugly side and of cuz, the nice side of the real world. I definitely did learn something out of the 6 months when i worked at the clinic. I hope Robz will learn something out of this experience too.

I'm exhausted.

xoxo Ei Leen xoxo

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Only left a week!

I need to pass my Final Theory. Wish me luck.

Will meet Nicholas since he's going off to Australia ( I think) for army training. Guess it'll be a goodbye lunch.

Hopefully can spend more time with Robz before holiday ends. I hope to eat my Pepper Lunch soon. Lolz. = P

And my Sushi buffet. Heh heh. Must really lose weight when school reopens. Haha...= P

Hope to see everyone real soon when school reopens!

xoxo Ei Leen xoxo

My damn packed day...

Oof! *plonks onto the computer chair*

Yesterday took a toll on me. Woke up at 2am to paste 3 Salopas tapes on my right calf cuz it was cramping. Wore the retainers to sleep last night. Wah.. gave me such great headaches, hence my grouchy mood.

Sorry Kare. Was a little bad mood yesterday.

Now my mood is even worse than ever. STUPID IDIOTIC KOR. WHY YOU GO OFF THE INTERNET CONNECTION?!?! REALLY SUCH AN IDIOTA! Now my IS class is at 1pm. HAPPY?! ARGH... It's only 8 plus in the morning and my mood is like...argh! already....

Sorry kare... for whining at you just now. Sorry...i know it's like 8am in the morning. But i can't help it. I hope u get the classes that you want later at 10am. Sorry... See lar. Stupid Ei Leen. Make the people around you suffer too. Haiz.

Haiz.

Met Pammie, YX and alicia yesterday for lunchie! Had Carl's Jr. Truthfully, i ate until my jaws hurt. Had Double western bacon cheeseburger. It was really delicious! The size of the burger was like the size of Alicia's head! It's a layer of of streaky bacons, 2 beef patties and 1 layer of onion rings. Ooo... everybody should know that i dun take onions. But the rings were.... REALLY nice. Haha...= P So every mouthful only consisted of maybe bread and onion rings or bread and beef patties. Cuz my mouth couldn't fit the whole mouthful of burger... if u get what i mean. Went to Candie Empire at millenia walk. Din know there's this shop there. Must take Robz there sometime soon. Was fascinated with the assortment of candies they have there. I just wanted to have everything! Unfortunately, most of it contain nuts! Argh... I love nuts! But i can't have them. It's juz too bad.

Went Pacific Coffee and yak and yak and yakkkkkkk for like 3 hrs plus. *Girls can really talk huh? But most of it was updating ourselves about one another since we rarly see one another and have a good chat. But am glad to catch up with the girls. Have this nice warm feeling. Hope we'll do it again sometime at Yx's house or something. = )

Met Robz at night for dinner at ToriQ. Was a little upset cuz i thought i could have met him earlier.... But nvm. It's over. Still managed to meet him at least. Will spend the day later with him anyways. Really regretted that i screamed ( didn't really screamed but whined, i guess) at him just now. Sorry dear. Sowwieeee....

Haiz....

xoxo Ei Leen xoxo

My apologies...

Internet was down for 5 days. So couldn't update my blog even though i'm so free at home.

Hmm.. Met Alicia and Yx on wed for some get together. Glad to see them after such a long time. Met Von and Celeste in the night. I've rejected both groups of girls to eat PepperLunch becuz of somebody. And both groups responded the same way. Haha... Hey! I've to curb my own saliva from dripping too k! Though i'm so tempted to eat it there and then, i've to resist! All becuz of somebody. Haiz... That somebody better appreciate it. Hmpf~!

But glad to see them after such a long time.

Yay~! Took my braces off! Hehheh... But need to polish... the colour abit... off...Lolz...

xoxo Ei Leen xoxo

Hmmm...

Finally managed to watch The Notebook yesterday. Bought the dvd like..... 1 1/2 years ago? Was super touched by the story. Though i've read the book before and kind of knew what the story was about, but in less than 30 mins into the show, i was moved to tears. = P

I absolutely love Nicholas Sparks books. I know i know. They're love stories. But somehow, every story showed a different kind of love. ( I still read a range of books k. Ranging from mysteries, action, thriller, romance, -idunnowhatgenreisDanBrown'sbooksunder- to detective stories). As long as it has a good storyline, i won't mind reading it. = )

Hmm.. The movie was really touching. Showed me how reality clashed with everthing. Well, it is kind of true that parents mind the status of the other person's family that you're gonna marry into. I mean, for example. For a girl, the parents would actually be quite concern over the bf's job and how much he's making. Would he be able to support her and stuffs. True... But sometimes, i feel that people have to look past the materialistic world. Sometimes, money and status is really not everything. Yea...initially it would matter, in the eyes of relatives and would you be able to proudly show off your other partner. I mean, it is kind of embarrassing if people ask what your partner does for a living, and you reply, ' In the environment business'. But in reality, he may be a garang guni or rubbish collector or something. Or worse, the girl is actually holding a higher post than the guy and she's actually bringing home the bigger piece of bread. Parents of the girl must be thinking -- why is my daughter suffering? She should be the one who's being pampered!

But i guess in this new century... People are much more open minded. Some people believe that love conquers all... blahblahblah. But i guess everyone has to be rational in making such choices. We must think of the future, the consequences of our actions, what we, ourselves actually want and not what others like parents, relatives want. Cuz ultimately, the choice is yours. And we must be responsible for the full brunt of consequences that may happen. If you think the other party is able to make you feel like your natural self, no pretending no faking expressions or feelings, able to make you feel whole and complete, yea.. i guess that's the one. If hanging out with him or her makes you feel trapped, incomplete, faked, and always compromising your happiness, i guess there's no happy ending. Cuz one day, you'll realise that you need freedom.. You'll need to be free and express your true self. Maybe by then, it'll be too late to return. Cuz you'll only live once. So people! Please make rational choices! Lolz...

Well, the movie reminded me of Robz. Muz get him to watch the show. Haha.. That's a difficult task. The movie made me remember the times i've spent with him. Ahh~~...those precious memories. Learnt so much from him, gone through so much. But no regrets! Treasure him lots.... = ) Geez... Even inspired me to message him at 4am to thank him for being with me even though i'm such a b**** sometimes. = P Haha... But i'm really glad to have him by my side.......

He keeps me warm!!!

Sorry for being so sappy... Lolz.. Blame the female hormones...

xoxo Ei Leen xoxo

Sigh~....

In a blink of an eye, holidays are ending soon... Left about 3 weeks more. = (

But i'm quite happy on how i spent my holidays. I've learnt how to manage my time well between my family, Kare and well...maybe not my friends. But i'm trying! I still have a date with Alicia and Xia. Maybe swimming or dinner... Suppose to meet Celeste, Lynette, Von and Liyana... but some couldn't make it. So it was cancelled. Hope we can still arrange a time to get together. Really miss all of them. *Sigh*

Well, at least i managed to spend quality time with my dear mum. Really enjoyed the time spent with her. I really did enjoy her company. = ) We didn't have to do much. Just ate lunch, tea snacks together, shopping... going to her favourite shops, trying clothes and stuffs. It was actually quite... comforting, i would say. Why? Becuz i think i feel that i'm much closer to her now after that dramatic episode. Though sometimes there're disagreements, but hey, who said life was without ups and downs? She's still my mum after all.. Love ya, Mummy! *Heeee* = D

Kare! We still have so much to do together! So much things to complete before holiday ends. Thanx for the soft toys! Was really a great surprise! You really pulled off tricks very well! Still can't believe that you tricked me into that movie stall and test my reactions for the Nightmare Before Xmas toys! *hUmpf* No fair. I'll get back at ya! U'll see!~

But still.... Happy 1 year! 1 year~! Love the memories! Love the 1st day actions and reactions. Haha~... Cute!~ *mUackz*

Okee.. Now for the serious stuffs. Got back results. I'm reallllllllllly disappointed in my results. But the weird thing is, i did better in the subjects that i thought i would do badly. Maybe i concentrated too much in those subjects and compromised my performance in the subjects that i thought i would surely do well in. Maths!!! Argh!!! Can't believe that i got a B for it. Damn those Stats! Argh..... GPA dropped but still quite satisfied with it.

**Hey classmates! Thought of which IS class to enrole in? I've no opinion cuz all choices seem quite blah to me. Lolz... Inform me about the choices before enrolement date k! Please? = )

Oh ya~! Tournament. Erm...... Let's be humble about it. Hm.. I would say I'm satisfied by how i played that day. Robz said i played well. Though my opponent noticed my weak forehand and slightly stronger backhand, I still waited for my chances and went for winner shots at the appropriate time. I was quite amazed that it worked! Haha... I guess patience and smart playing is really important in tennis. But at least i'd learnt something out of the match. I knew what i needed to work on, which is to chalk up on my match play experience. I need to learn how to manage the big points. My building up is good. But i need to work on how to close the point. Hey! At least i know my groundstrokes aren't that bad after all! Heh heh. I was serving okay that night. Only 1 double fault. Return of serves was good! Smacked some angle shots. Opponent couldn't reach some. Amazing huh? Most winners are forehand winners. Even more miraculous huh? Lolz... Considering how wobbly my forehand is. Haha... It's weird. But i really enjoyed the match. Learnt so much. Can't wait to play tennis now. Haha....= P Must get ready for IVP in mid Nov. Sylvia!!! Where are u?!!?

K.. enough for 1 night.

Hope to see everyone soon!~

xoxo Ei Leen xoxo