Why are guys such gongheads* at times?
*clueless souls
Dunno why they have a brain sometimes... Maybe at that point of time, all the blood went to the wrong place.
Maybe not only at that point of time. Gave him a full 17 hrs time to realise that i'm still upset!
Stupid... Guys are such dorkheads at times.
xoxo Ei Leen xoxo
Sunday, July 17, 2005
Friday, July 15, 2005
Wednesday, July 13, 2005
Me....
I've changed. I admit that i've changed over the past 7 to 8 weeks. Probably due to me entering year 2. I know i will change to a slightly different person, because i know that once i'm out of my comfort zone, i'm gone. Not literally mentally and emotionally and physically gone. But i know that i would need alot of time to adjust and cope with my new surroundings.
And yea, everything came true. I've changed into another person. I'm not the same anymore. I know i've changed about 40% of myself. And people around me can't accept the new changes in me. Frankly speaking, i don't either. I dislike my newself. I hope i can return to my bubbly, cheerful and 'don't think too much of everything' self. For the past 7 weeks, i was at lost. I didn't know what to focus on. Whether it's studies, family or myself, i didn't know what to put my priority on. I wouldn't say there was much difference in year 1 or year 2. But that slight difference kind of like twirled me around and made me completely lost. Yea, there was still waking up in the morning, going to school, go for lectures, tutorials, pracs and tennis sessions.
But the environment is totally different. A lecture hall full of strangers, new teachers, much more difficult modules, a class or strangers. Yea, some of you may cope extremely well with new environments. But i guess i can't. I admit that i'm afraid to venture out. Though i came poly to 'make' myself be brave enough to venture out and meet new things, new friends and all, i guess i still couldn't take everything all at once. I guess the transfer to level 2.1 was the thing that made me change. I'm not blaming anything for my change. I guess i have to make myself adjust fast enough well not changing myself. The biggest mistake for the past 8 weeks was to lose my focus. I totally lost it. In the end, my family and my close ones suffered the most.
A really big Sorry to my parents and Robz. Sorry to cause unnecessary worries.
I am trying hard to back to myself and not lose my focus anymore. Apologies to Robz, for all the unnecessary quarrels, misunderstandings, miscommunication and everything that caused those turbulent weeks. It was really a rollercoaster ride huh? Sorry. Love you lotz. Thanx for standing by me.
xoxo Ei Leen xoxo
And yea, everything came true. I've changed into another person. I'm not the same anymore. I know i've changed about 40% of myself. And people around me can't accept the new changes in me. Frankly speaking, i don't either. I dislike my newself. I hope i can return to my bubbly, cheerful and 'don't think too much of everything' self. For the past 7 weeks, i was at lost. I didn't know what to focus on. Whether it's studies, family or myself, i didn't know what to put my priority on. I wouldn't say there was much difference in year 1 or year 2. But that slight difference kind of like twirled me around and made me completely lost. Yea, there was still waking up in the morning, going to school, go for lectures, tutorials, pracs and tennis sessions.
But the environment is totally different. A lecture hall full of strangers, new teachers, much more difficult modules, a class or strangers. Yea, some of you may cope extremely well with new environments. But i guess i can't. I admit that i'm afraid to venture out. Though i came poly to 'make' myself be brave enough to venture out and meet new things, new friends and all, i guess i still couldn't take everything all at once. I guess the transfer to level 2.1 was the thing that made me change. I'm not blaming anything for my change. I guess i have to make myself adjust fast enough well not changing myself. The biggest mistake for the past 8 weeks was to lose my focus. I totally lost it. In the end, my family and my close ones suffered the most.
A really big Sorry to my parents and Robz. Sorry to cause unnecessary worries.
I am trying hard to back to myself and not lose my focus anymore. Apologies to Robz, for all the unnecessary quarrels, misunderstandings, miscommunication and everything that caused those turbulent weeks. It was really a rollercoaster ride huh? Sorry. Love you lotz. Thanx for standing by me.
xoxo Ei Leen xoxo
Monday, July 11, 2005
Sunday, July 10, 2005
Geez!!!
OMG.... i lost another 1 kg! Now i'm like only 49kg?!?! What the heck did i do?! I seriously don't know... i ate like ALOT already. So much junk food and fast food... According to Robz, i'm probably losing my baby fats, but i seriously don't see any difference in my size... Still look the same to me... *scratch head*
Ooo! Juz celebrated 9 months with him.. Time passes by super fast huh? And soon, it's gonna be a year and so on and so forth... It's been a great 9 months. Though last month we had a turbulent month but i'm glad everything is over and yupz... Good things happen to anyone who hasn't lost hope. Don't you agree? I guess everyone has to be patient and don't ever lose hope which is super duper important. I mean, if you lose hope, then what's the point of going on? There would be no meaning in everything you do. No drive, no motivation.... So...yupz! Dare to hope, dare to dream.. Cuz they do come true, i believe. Oh right! Believe! Believing is a super duperduper important thing too... So don't lose hope and believe in yourself!
Saw Sher Lin and Ting 2 on....wed i think. Feels weird after not seeing them for a long time. Sher Lin looks tired.. Muz be stressed. *Must take care ar*
Feeling damn sad for Tonic.. Cuz he's behaviour seems a little crazy.. like no more sense of direction and his eyes looked so sad!! So i've decided to exposed the 2nd level by not covering it with paper and allow him to look down at his kids. But now, he seems more sad! Cuz all he does is lie on the floor and stare at his kids from the 2nd floor. And the sadness in his eyes! I feel so sad for him! Hopefully the kids can eat by themselves by thursday and i'm able to put Tonic back with his kids. The kids aren't able to open their eyes yet though.... I wonder how long..
xoxo Ei Leen xoxo
Ooo! Juz celebrated 9 months with him.. Time passes by super fast huh? And soon, it's gonna be a year and so on and so forth... It's been a great 9 months. Though last month we had a turbulent month but i'm glad everything is over and yupz... Good things happen to anyone who hasn't lost hope. Don't you agree? I guess everyone has to be patient and don't ever lose hope which is super duper important. I mean, if you lose hope, then what's the point of going on? There would be no meaning in everything you do. No drive, no motivation.... So...yupz! Dare to hope, dare to dream.. Cuz they do come true, i believe. Oh right! Believe! Believing is a super duperduper important thing too... So don't lose hope and believe in yourself!
Saw Sher Lin and Ting 2 on....wed i think. Feels weird after not seeing them for a long time. Sher Lin looks tired.. Muz be stressed. *Must take care ar*
Feeling damn sad for Tonic.. Cuz he's behaviour seems a little crazy.. like no more sense of direction and his eyes looked so sad!! So i've decided to exposed the 2nd level by not covering it with paper and allow him to look down at his kids. But now, he seems more sad! Cuz all he does is lie on the floor and stare at his kids from the 2nd floor. And the sadness in his eyes! I feel so sad for him! Hopefully the kids can eat by themselves by thursday and i'm able to put Tonic back with his kids. The kids aren't able to open their eyes yet though.... I wonder how long..
xoxo Ei Leen xoxo
Thursday, July 07, 2005
Wheee...
Finally.. everything is back to normal. Stopped losing weight. Scared me last week when i lost 3 kg! Oops! Nobody could see any difference except Yx and Alicia. Probably they don't see me often. Even i don't even realise it myself. Anyway, from the amount i'm eating nowadays, i should be gaining weight in no time. Lol.
Common test coming.. Time to mug again. I'm still in holiday mood! - ___-''' - School work is Boring-
Update on Gin And Tonic: Tonic's in the 2nd level of the cage. Always eating up the paper i laid to spy on his kids. Luckily i scotch taped the paper to the cage. Guess tomorrow i have to replace the paper again. Gin is doing well, she's spreading her 4 kids to each corner for whatever reasons. The kids have fur now! Greyish tiny fur. Super duper cute! Will try to take pic! Wonder when will the kids be independent enough to allow the family to unite...
Whee...Hope Jasmine will help clear my doubts! Alicia darling too! Hopefully, i'll be saved soon...
Ohoh! Alicia darling~..heard u're sick huh? (From KC) Pls take care k! Good luck for CT! Hope to see u soon! Yx too!! Good luck! *Big hugz*
xoxo Ei Leen xoxo
Common test coming.. Time to mug again. I'm still in holiday mood! - ___-''' - School work is Boring-
Update on Gin And Tonic: Tonic's in the 2nd level of the cage. Always eating up the paper i laid to spy on his kids. Luckily i scotch taped the paper to the cage. Guess tomorrow i have to replace the paper again. Gin is doing well, she's spreading her 4 kids to each corner for whatever reasons. The kids have fur now! Greyish tiny fur. Super duper cute! Will try to take pic! Wonder when will the kids be independent enough to allow the family to unite...
Whee...Hope Jasmine will help clear my doubts! Alicia darling too! Hopefully, i'll be saved soon...
Ohoh! Alicia darling~..heard u're sick huh? (From KC) Pls take care k! Good luck for CT! Hope to see u soon! Yx too!! Good luck! *Big hugz*
xoxo Ei Leen xoxo
Saturday, July 02, 2005
I feel blessed*
Yea... Indeed... I believe i've been blessed with an angel.
Love you lotz..
P.S. Oh yea~! My hamsters Gin and Tonic are proud parents of 4 kids! Heh heh... I really didn't know Gin was pregnant until i was cleaning their cage 2 days ago. Was tilting the hippo house upside down and out came Gin with 2 baby hamsters still stuck with umbillical cords at her 'u know where'... the other 2 babies came spilling out. I'm so guilty! I seriously didn't know she was giving birth! But yea... I'm glad for Gin and Tonic...
xoxo Ei Leen xoxo
Love you lotz..
P.S. Oh yea~! My hamsters Gin and Tonic are proud parents of 4 kids! Heh heh... I really didn't know Gin was pregnant until i was cleaning their cage 2 days ago. Was tilting the hippo house upside down and out came Gin with 2 baby hamsters still stuck with umbillical cords at her 'u know where'... the other 2 babies came spilling out. I'm so guilty! I seriously didn't know she was giving birth! But yea... I'm glad for Gin and Tonic...
xoxo Ei Leen xoxo
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