Okee...i hoped that everyone had enjoyed their holiday! More to come yar.. juz 5 more days and it'll be the begining of another new year! Time passes soOooOo fast yar?
For the poly people~..Please rmb to study k! Lolz.
For those still having hols.. enjoy while u can! = P
Take care everyone...
xoxo Ei Leen xoxo
Tuesday, December 27, 2005
Saturday, December 24, 2005
Friday, December 23, 2005
My My....
Ok. This is freaky.
I've experienced this not once but twice.
I remembered that a few months ago, i wanted to blog about my frustrations as i have juz quarrelled with my mom. I blogged, i vented my frustrations and clicked publish blog. But guess what, the whole computer hanged on me! I had to restart my comp. But by the time my windows loaded up, i felt that it's a waste of time to reblog again since i've already 'written' out or 'got the frustrations' out of my system. It's like i wasn't meant to blog that entry. Or that entry wasn't meant to be shown. *weird*
Ok..The 2nd time happened 2 days ago. I kinda had a misunderstanding with Robz and er...i wanted to blog about my sadness, anger and blahblahblah. But guess what, i couldn't even load the damn internet explorer. In the end, i couldn't blog at all. I wanted to go microsoft word to actually type it out and save it later then load it up. But...isn't that gonna so troublesome? Since i'm gonna badmouth about someone and myself. Then i thought, what the heck...go and sleep.
Noww......realising this, i think i might either have a guardian angel beside me, so that i won't blog rubbish or blog something about someone that's totally innocent. Prevent me from misunderstanding someone or something... Or maybe God's watching over me so that i won't do something stupid and cause more misunderstandings. Coming to think of it, i wonder what'll happen if i really blogged those 2 entries... About my mum, about my kare. Maybe it'll not make me realise that i was partly to blame for what happened like what i now actually realised. Oh well, if nobody gets what i mean, never mind. What really matters is that nobody gets hurt after any bad entries. Right, Guardian angel?
I've gone mad.
xoxo Ei Leen xoxo
I've experienced this not once but twice.
I remembered that a few months ago, i wanted to blog about my frustrations as i have juz quarrelled with my mom. I blogged, i vented my frustrations and clicked publish blog. But guess what, the whole computer hanged on me! I had to restart my comp. But by the time my windows loaded up, i felt that it's a waste of time to reblog again since i've already 'written' out or 'got the frustrations' out of my system. It's like i wasn't meant to blog that entry. Or that entry wasn't meant to be shown. *weird*
Ok..The 2nd time happened 2 days ago. I kinda had a misunderstanding with Robz and er...i wanted to blog about my sadness, anger and blahblahblah. But guess what, i couldn't even load the damn internet explorer. In the end, i couldn't blog at all. I wanted to go microsoft word to actually type it out and save it later then load it up. But...isn't that gonna so troublesome? Since i'm gonna badmouth about someone and myself. Then i thought, what the heck...go and sleep.
Noww......realising this, i think i might either have a guardian angel beside me, so that i won't blog rubbish or blog something about someone that's totally innocent. Prevent me from misunderstanding someone or something... Or maybe God's watching over me so that i won't do something stupid and cause more misunderstandings. Coming to think of it, i wonder what'll happen if i really blogged those 2 entries... About my mum, about my kare. Maybe it'll not make me realise that i was partly to blame for what happened like what i now actually realised. Oh well, if nobody gets what i mean, never mind. What really matters is that nobody gets hurt after any bad entries. Right, Guardian angel?
I've gone mad.
xoxo Ei Leen xoxo
Wednesday, December 07, 2005
Tuesday, December 06, 2005
I'm back... Heh heh
Okee..After weeks of being MIA. I'm back! Juz came back from Malacca on Sunday. Went for a weekend break at my uncle's resort. Unfortunately, i was kinda having a flu on friday. And on Sat, it flared up and erm... i kinda suffered there. Using up boxes of tissues and got my nose really swollen. = P
Was really busy for the past weeks cuz of Tennis IVP. Yay! We won! Heh heh. But next year, Rita will be gone and DIE! I'm the only year 3 for the girls team. Jia lat. But hope that new members will come in from the year 1s. = )
Both guys and girls won. Yeaaaa!!~ Haha... = )
My FYP is a lil' screwed up. Trying to do some damage control so...... I apologize if my behaviour is a little erratic or unforgivable for the next 2 weeks. Sorry. I ask for everybody's understanding.
PAM!!! We'll get through this yar? *Prays* ....Real hard...
xoxo Ei Leen xoxo
Was really busy for the past weeks cuz of Tennis IVP. Yay! We won! Heh heh. But next year, Rita will be gone and DIE! I'm the only year 3 for the girls team. Jia lat. But hope that new members will come in from the year 1s. = )
Both guys and girls won. Yeaaaa!!~ Haha... = )
My FYP is a lil' screwed up. Trying to do some damage control so...... I apologize if my behaviour is a little erratic or unforgivable for the next 2 weeks. Sorry. I ask for everybody's understanding.
PAM!!! We'll get through this yar? *Prays* ....Real hard...
xoxo Ei Leen xoxo
Friday, November 11, 2005
*Sigh
Nono... Saying that all unchanging things are boring is not true. Sometimes things or people need to retain a little bit ( or maybe alot) of the old flavour in order to identify that it is still itself. I mean, you can expect people to change 100% just because you think he or she doesn't excite or appeal to you now right?
Haiyah...don't know lar.
I hate to adapt to new environments.
xoxo Ei Leen xoxo
Haiyah...don't know lar.
I hate to adapt to new environments.
xoxo Ei Leen xoxo
Sunday, November 06, 2005
Monday, October 31, 2005
!@#$%^**(*^#
ARGHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I want to vent my anger. I just can't stand it.
ARRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!
#!$@%@#^%&^%$%&^#^&$%^#$$%^Y$%^%^%$%~!$$%#^&^%
Why does it seem like he doesn't understand me anymore?! He made me more angry by asking me WHY!! ARGH! Idiota!!
WHY WHY WHY?! I want to know why i'm feeling this way too!..............
Maybe i hate changes. But why must things change?! Why can't it be the same all the time?! Why do people have to change? Why do some people have to go back on their words?! Why can't i just remain 17 all the time?!
WHY!?
I hate change.
xoxo Ei Leen xoxo
I want to vent my anger. I just can't stand it.
ARRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!
#!$@%@#^%&^%$%&^#^&$%^#$$%^Y$%^%^%$%~!$$%#^&^%
Why does it seem like he doesn't understand me anymore?! He made me more angry by asking me WHY!! ARGH! Idiota!!
WHY WHY WHY?! I want to know why i'm feeling this way too!..............
Maybe i hate changes. But why must things change?! Why can't it be the same all the time?! Why do people have to change? Why do some people have to go back on their words?! Why can't i just remain 17 all the time?!
WHY!?
I hate change.
xoxo Ei Leen xoxo
Friday, October 28, 2005
Sheesh.....!
I broke down in Kallang Tennis court today. I sound like a crybaby. But i couldn't help it. Was psychoing myself not to let emotions take over me but... the tears just spilled. The guys were bullying me. Thought i was used to it after 1 1/2 years...but still, it took an effect plus i wasn't playing that well today.... So.... Yea.... Haiz....
The girls team is pathetic. There's only 2 girls.
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Anyway... The ride home was horrendous!*Horrors and horrors!!* So many lightnings! And i mean ..... Damn scary lightnings. Can even see the streaks!... Horrors! There were so many of them. Don't even feel safe in the interchange..... Thunders were damn loud too... Argh.. Where is he when i need him?
.........
xoxo Ei Leen xoxo
The girls team is pathetic. There's only 2 girls.
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Anyway... The ride home was horrendous!*Horrors and horrors!!* So many lightnings! And i mean ..... Damn scary lightnings. Can even see the streaks!... Horrors! There were so many of them. Don't even feel safe in the interchange..... Thunders were damn loud too... Argh.. Where is he when i need him?
.........
xoxo Ei Leen xoxo
Monday, October 24, 2005
An eye opening day.... Maybe only a lil'....
Okee... interesting day. Ok, night. It was an interesting night.
Robz and Jensen came over. Robz recently joined a company.... You can say he's a -learninginprogress- marketing agent. Lolz. Well, the only reason i let him join is that he'll be learning a skill, which of course, is marketing. Pssst! Btw... I hate marketers. Maybe it's because i lack a sweet tongue, that's why i'm jealous of them, i guess. But somehow, i just don't have a good impression of them. Yar..... Anyway, had them over so that Robz could have a chance to practise to present the product to my family. But.... He failed. Terribly, in my opinion. *Sorry kare. But that's what i think. Yea... Maybe you can interact well with strangers but somehow can't relate well with strangers.
This whole thing reminded me about myself about 1 1/2 years ago when i went for a interview for a position as a Dental Assistant. Hello?! My parents used to nag at me to brush my teeth, don't eat so much sweets. Used to bluff the school nurse that i have my own dentist to skip dental appointments blahblahblah. Okeee....i fear the dentist. So now what? Be a dental nurse? Lolz. But still i decided to try it out with the encouragements of my parents and aunt. Go, they said. Try it out. Learn more skills and how to interact with customers blahblah. Learn to have a boss. Hey! I really enjoyed working there! I've learnt so much things that i could never learn from the textbooks.
Like how to multi-task. I must learn to assist the dentist, hand him instruments, prepare the procedures in operations while answering phonecalls or even handle a patient that's waiting for his/her appointment outside. Hey! I lost so much weight while i was there! Think about 4 kg. Cuz i've to run round the clinic, handle suppliers, take stock, wash instruments, take appointments, be aware of fussy or impatient patients, blahblahblah. It was really great! I learnt so much! And i'm surprised that i actually enjoyed the experience.
So... As for Robz. I hope that he's not in it just for the money but also for the things that he'll eventually learn. Like how to handle different customers, how to handle crisis and must remember to do homework! Homework as in... know the product until like it's your own palm. When i was a dental nurse, i MUST know my facts very well. I must know what happens to gums and teeth when this happens or when that happens. Cuz you'll never know what the customer or patient will ask. Trust me, people do ask the weirdest questions. Basically, i must know about 85% of what the dentist learnt in medical school. Lol. So.... For Robz, maybe he has to know the scientific basis of the product blahblahblah... basically, know the product until like you're the one who invented it. You must also learn how to convince or assure your customer blahblah... The presentation and the overalls. The way to handle different kind of questions... Most importantly, you must be versatile. Able to think damn fast and shoot damn fast answers. Yea... It's definitely a damn good skill to learn. Definitely a damn difficult skill to master too. I totally agree that it's very difficult to be versatile and learn how to handle different kinds of situation, cuz you'll never know what kind of people you're gonna meet. So we must learn the different kind of approaches on how to placate or assure or convince a person.
Anyway..... Tonight just reminded me of how i stepped into the real world 1 1/2 years ago. I've seen the ugly side and of cuz, the nice side of the real world. I definitely did learn something out of the 6 months when i worked at the clinic. I hope Robz will learn something out of this experience too.
I'm exhausted.
xoxo Ei Leen xoxo
Robz and Jensen came over. Robz recently joined a company.... You can say he's a -learninginprogress- marketing agent. Lolz. Well, the only reason i let him join is that he'll be learning a skill, which of course, is marketing. Pssst! Btw... I hate marketers. Maybe it's because i lack a sweet tongue, that's why i'm jealous of them, i guess. But somehow, i just don't have a good impression of them. Yar..... Anyway, had them over so that Robz could have a chance to practise to present the product to my family. But.... He failed. Terribly, in my opinion. *Sorry kare. But that's what i think. Yea... Maybe you can interact well with strangers but somehow can't relate well with strangers.
This whole thing reminded me about myself about 1 1/2 years ago when i went for a interview for a position as a Dental Assistant. Hello?! My parents used to nag at me to brush my teeth, don't eat so much sweets. Used to bluff the school nurse that i have my own dentist to skip dental appointments blahblahblah. Okeee....i fear the dentist. So now what? Be a dental nurse? Lolz. But still i decided to try it out with the encouragements of my parents and aunt. Go, they said. Try it out. Learn more skills and how to interact with customers blahblah. Learn to have a boss. Hey! I really enjoyed working there! I've learnt so much things that i could never learn from the textbooks.
Like how to multi-task. I must learn to assist the dentist, hand him instruments, prepare the procedures in operations while answering phonecalls or even handle a patient that's waiting for his/her appointment outside. Hey! I lost so much weight while i was there! Think about 4 kg. Cuz i've to run round the clinic, handle suppliers, take stock, wash instruments, take appointments, be aware of fussy or impatient patients, blahblahblah. It was really great! I learnt so much! And i'm surprised that i actually enjoyed the experience.
So... As for Robz. I hope that he's not in it just for the money but also for the things that he'll eventually learn. Like how to handle different customers, how to handle crisis and must remember to do homework! Homework as in... know the product until like it's your own palm. When i was a dental nurse, i MUST know my facts very well. I must know what happens to gums and teeth when this happens or when that happens. Cuz you'll never know what the customer or patient will ask. Trust me, people do ask the weirdest questions. Basically, i must know about 85% of what the dentist learnt in medical school. Lol. So.... For Robz, maybe he has to know the scientific basis of the product blahblahblah... basically, know the product until like you're the one who invented it. You must also learn how to convince or assure your customer blahblah... The presentation and the overalls. The way to handle different kind of questions... Most importantly, you must be versatile. Able to think damn fast and shoot damn fast answers. Yea... It's definitely a damn good skill to learn. Definitely a damn difficult skill to master too. I totally agree that it's very difficult to be versatile and learn how to handle different kinds of situation, cuz you'll never know what kind of people you're gonna meet. So we must learn the different kind of approaches on how to placate or assure or convince a person.
Anyway..... Tonight just reminded me of how i stepped into the real world 1 1/2 years ago. I've seen the ugly side and of cuz, the nice side of the real world. I definitely did learn something out of the 6 months when i worked at the clinic. I hope Robz will learn something out of this experience too.
I'm exhausted.
xoxo Ei Leen xoxo
Sunday, October 23, 2005
=` (
Only left a week!
I need to pass my Final Theory. Wish me luck.
Will meet Nicholas since he's going off to Australia ( I think) for army training. Guess it'll be a goodbye lunch.
Hopefully can spend more time with Robz before holiday ends. I hope to eat my Pepper Lunch soon. Lolz. = P
And my Sushi buffet. Heh heh. Must really lose weight when school reopens. Haha...= P
Hope to see everyone real soon when school reopens!
xoxo Ei Leen xoxo
I need to pass my Final Theory. Wish me luck.
Will meet Nicholas since he's going off to Australia ( I think) for army training. Guess it'll be a goodbye lunch.
Hopefully can spend more time with Robz before holiday ends. I hope to eat my Pepper Lunch soon. Lolz. = P
And my Sushi buffet. Heh heh. Must really lose weight when school reopens. Haha...= P
Hope to see everyone real soon when school reopens!
xoxo Ei Leen xoxo
Thursday, October 20, 2005
My damn packed day...
Oof! *plonks onto the computer chair*
Yesterday took a toll on me. Woke up at 2am to paste 3 Salopas tapes on my right calf cuz it was cramping. Wore the retainers to sleep last night. Wah.. gave me such great headaches, hence my grouchy mood.
Sorry Kare. Was a little bad mood yesterday.
Now my mood is even worse than ever. STUPID IDIOTIC KOR. WHY YOU GO OFF THE INTERNET CONNECTION?!?! REALLY SUCH AN IDIOTA! Now my IS class is at 1pm. HAPPY?! ARGH... It's only 8 plus in the morning and my mood is like...argh! already....
Sorry kare... for whining at you just now. Sorry...i know it's like 8am in the morning. But i can't help it. I hope u get the classes that you want later at 10am. Sorry... See lar. Stupid Ei Leen. Make the people around you suffer too. Haiz.
Haiz.
Met Pammie, YX and alicia yesterday for lunchie! Had Carl's Jr. Truthfully, i ate until my jaws hurt. Had Double western bacon cheeseburger. It was really delicious! The size of the burger was like the size of Alicia's head! It's a layer of of streaky bacons, 2 beef patties and 1 layer of onion rings. Ooo... everybody should know that i dun take onions. But the rings were.... REALLY nice. Haha...= P So every mouthful only consisted of maybe bread and onion rings or bread and beef patties. Cuz my mouth couldn't fit the whole mouthful of burger... if u get what i mean. Went to Candie Empire at millenia walk. Din know there's this shop there. Must take Robz there sometime soon. Was fascinated with the assortment of candies they have there. I just wanted to have everything! Unfortunately, most of it contain nuts! Argh... I love nuts! But i can't have them. It's juz too bad.
Went Pacific Coffee and yak and yak and yakkkkkkk for like 3 hrs plus. *Girls can really talk huh? But most of it was updating ourselves about one another since we rarly see one another and have a good chat. But am glad to catch up with the girls. Have this nice warm feeling. Hope we'll do it again sometime at Yx's house or something. = )
Met Robz at night for dinner at ToriQ. Was a little upset cuz i thought i could have met him earlier.... But nvm. It's over. Still managed to meet him at least. Will spend the day later with him anyways. Really regretted that i screamed ( didn't really screamed but whined, i guess) at him just now. Sorry dear. Sowwieeee....
Haiz....
xoxo Ei Leen xoxo
Yesterday took a toll on me. Woke up at 2am to paste 3 Salopas tapes on my right calf cuz it was cramping. Wore the retainers to sleep last night. Wah.. gave me such great headaches, hence my grouchy mood.
Sorry Kare. Was a little bad mood yesterday.
Now my mood is even worse than ever. STUPID IDIOTIC KOR. WHY YOU GO OFF THE INTERNET CONNECTION?!?! REALLY SUCH AN IDIOTA! Now my IS class is at 1pm. HAPPY?! ARGH... It's only 8 plus in the morning and my mood is like...argh! already....
Sorry kare... for whining at you just now. Sorry...i know it's like 8am in the morning. But i can't help it. I hope u get the classes that you want later at 10am. Sorry... See lar. Stupid Ei Leen. Make the people around you suffer too. Haiz.
Haiz.
Met Pammie, YX and alicia yesterday for lunchie! Had Carl's Jr. Truthfully, i ate until my jaws hurt. Had Double western bacon cheeseburger. It was really delicious! The size of the burger was like the size of Alicia's head! It's a layer of of streaky bacons, 2 beef patties and 1 layer of onion rings. Ooo... everybody should know that i dun take onions. But the rings were.... REALLY nice. Haha...= P So every mouthful only consisted of maybe bread and onion rings or bread and beef patties. Cuz my mouth couldn't fit the whole mouthful of burger... if u get what i mean. Went to Candie Empire at millenia walk. Din know there's this shop there. Must take Robz there sometime soon. Was fascinated with the assortment of candies they have there. I just wanted to have everything! Unfortunately, most of it contain nuts! Argh... I love nuts! But i can't have them. It's juz too bad.
Went Pacific Coffee and yak and yak and yakkkkkkk for like 3 hrs plus. *Girls can really talk huh? But most of it was updating ourselves about one another since we rarly see one another and have a good chat. But am glad to catch up with the girls. Have this nice warm feeling. Hope we'll do it again sometime at Yx's house or something. = )
Met Robz at night for dinner at ToriQ. Was a little upset cuz i thought i could have met him earlier.... But nvm. It's over. Still managed to meet him at least. Will spend the day later with him anyways. Really regretted that i screamed ( didn't really screamed but whined, i guess) at him just now. Sorry dear. Sowwieeee....
Haiz....
xoxo Ei Leen xoxo
Monday, October 17, 2005
My apologies...
Internet was down for 5 days. So couldn't update my blog even though i'm so free at home.
Hmm.. Met Alicia and Yx on wed for some get together. Glad to see them after such a long time. Met Von and Celeste in the night. I've rejected both groups of girls to eat PepperLunch becuz of somebody. And both groups responded the same way. Haha... Hey! I've to curb my own saliva from dripping too k! Though i'm so tempted to eat it there and then, i've to resist! All becuz of somebody. Haiz... That somebody better appreciate it. Hmpf~!
But glad to see them after such a long time.
Yay~! Took my braces off! Hehheh... But need to polish... the colour abit... off...Lolz...
xoxo Ei Leen xoxo
Hmm.. Met Alicia and Yx on wed for some get together. Glad to see them after such a long time. Met Von and Celeste in the night. I've rejected both groups of girls to eat PepperLunch becuz of somebody. And both groups responded the same way. Haha... Hey! I've to curb my own saliva from dripping too k! Though i'm so tempted to eat it there and then, i've to resist! All becuz of somebody. Haiz... That somebody better appreciate it. Hmpf~!
But glad to see them after such a long time.
Yay~! Took my braces off! Hehheh... But need to polish... the colour abit... off...Lolz...
xoxo Ei Leen xoxo
Sunday, October 09, 2005
Hmmm...
Finally managed to watch The Notebook yesterday. Bought the dvd like..... 1 1/2 years ago? Was super touched by the story. Though i've read the book before and kind of knew what the story was about, but in less than 30 mins into the show, i was moved to tears. = P
I absolutely love Nicholas Sparks books. I know i know. They're love stories. But somehow, every story showed a different kind of love. ( I still read a range of books k. Ranging from mysteries, action, thriller, romance, -idunnowhatgenreisDanBrown'sbooksunder- to detective stories). As long as it has a good storyline, i won't mind reading it. = )
Hmm.. The movie was really touching. Showed me how reality clashed with everthing. Well, it is kind of true that parents mind the status of the other person's family that you're gonna marry into. I mean, for example. For a girl, the parents would actually be quite concern over the bf's job and how much he's making. Would he be able to support her and stuffs. True... But sometimes, i feel that people have to look past the materialistic world. Sometimes, money and status is really not everything. Yea...initially it would matter, in the eyes of relatives and would you be able to proudly show off your other partner. I mean, it is kind of embarrassing if people ask what your partner does for a living, and you reply, ' In the environment business'. But in reality, he may be a garang guni or rubbish collector or something. Or worse, the girl is actually holding a higher post than the guy and she's actually bringing home the bigger piece of bread. Parents of the girl must be thinking -- why is my daughter suffering? She should be the one who's being pampered!
But i guess in this new century... People are much more open minded. Some people believe that love conquers all... blahblahblah. But i guess everyone has to be rational in making such choices. We must think of the future, the consequences of our actions, what we, ourselves actually want and not what others like parents, relatives want. Cuz ultimately, the choice is yours. And we must be responsible for the full brunt of consequences that may happen. If you think the other party is able to make you feel like your natural self, no pretending no faking expressions or feelings, able to make you feel whole and complete, yea.. i guess that's the one. If hanging out with him or her makes you feel trapped, incomplete, faked, and always compromising your happiness, i guess there's no happy ending. Cuz one day, you'll realise that you need freedom.. You'll need to be free and express your true self. Maybe by then, it'll be too late to return. Cuz you'll only live once. So people! Please make rational choices! Lolz...
Well, the movie reminded me of Robz. Muz get him to watch the show. Haha.. That's a difficult task. The movie made me remember the times i've spent with him. Ahh~~...those precious memories. Learnt so much from him, gone through so much. But no regrets! Treasure him lots.... = ) Geez... Even inspired me to message him at 4am to thank him for being with me even though i'm such a b**** sometimes. = P Haha... But i'm really glad to have him by my side.......
He keeps me warm!!!
Sorry for being so sappy... Lolz.. Blame the female hormones...
xoxo Ei Leen xoxo
I absolutely love Nicholas Sparks books. I know i know. They're love stories. But somehow, every story showed a different kind of love. ( I still read a range of books k. Ranging from mysteries, action, thriller, romance, -idunnowhatgenreisDanBrown'sbooksunder- to detective stories). As long as it has a good storyline, i won't mind reading it. = )
Hmm.. The movie was really touching. Showed me how reality clashed with everthing. Well, it is kind of true that parents mind the status of the other person's family that you're gonna marry into. I mean, for example. For a girl, the parents would actually be quite concern over the bf's job and how much he's making. Would he be able to support her and stuffs. True... But sometimes, i feel that people have to look past the materialistic world. Sometimes, money and status is really not everything. Yea...initially it would matter, in the eyes of relatives and would you be able to proudly show off your other partner. I mean, it is kind of embarrassing if people ask what your partner does for a living, and you reply, ' In the environment business'. But in reality, he may be a garang guni or rubbish collector or something. Or worse, the girl is actually holding a higher post than the guy and she's actually bringing home the bigger piece of bread. Parents of the girl must be thinking -- why is my daughter suffering? She should be the one who's being pampered!
But i guess in this new century... People are much more open minded. Some people believe that love conquers all... blahblahblah. But i guess everyone has to be rational in making such choices. We must think of the future, the consequences of our actions, what we, ourselves actually want and not what others like parents, relatives want. Cuz ultimately, the choice is yours. And we must be responsible for the full brunt of consequences that may happen. If you think the other party is able to make you feel like your natural self, no pretending no faking expressions or feelings, able to make you feel whole and complete, yea.. i guess that's the one. If hanging out with him or her makes you feel trapped, incomplete, faked, and always compromising your happiness, i guess there's no happy ending. Cuz one day, you'll realise that you need freedom.. You'll need to be free and express your true self. Maybe by then, it'll be too late to return. Cuz you'll only live once. So people! Please make rational choices! Lolz...
Well, the movie reminded me of Robz. Muz get him to watch the show. Haha.. That's a difficult task. The movie made me remember the times i've spent with him. Ahh~~...those precious memories. Learnt so much from him, gone through so much. But no regrets! Treasure him lots.... = ) Geez... Even inspired me to message him at 4am to thank him for being with me even though i'm such a b**** sometimes. = P Haha... But i'm really glad to have him by my side.......
He keeps me warm!!!
Sorry for being so sappy... Lolz.. Blame the female hormones...
xoxo Ei Leen xoxo
Saturday, October 08, 2005
Sigh~....
In a blink of an eye, holidays are ending soon... Left about 3 weeks more. = (
But i'm quite happy on how i spent my holidays. I've learnt how to manage my time well between my family, Kare and well...maybe not my friends. But i'm trying! I still have a date with Alicia and Xia. Maybe swimming or dinner... Suppose to meet Celeste, Lynette, Von and Liyana... but some couldn't make it. So it was cancelled. Hope we can still arrange a time to get together. Really miss all of them. *Sigh*
Well, at least i managed to spend quality time with my dear mum. Really enjoyed the time spent with her. I really did enjoy her company. = ) We didn't have to do much. Just ate lunch, tea snacks together, shopping... going to her favourite shops, trying clothes and stuffs. It was actually quite... comforting, i would say. Why? Becuz i think i feel that i'm much closer to her now after that dramatic episode. Though sometimes there're disagreements, but hey, who said life was without ups and downs? She's still my mum after all.. Love ya, Mummy! *Heeee* = D
Kare! We still have so much to do together! So much things to complete before holiday ends. Thanx for the soft toys! Was really a great surprise! You really pulled off tricks very well! Still can't believe that you tricked me into that movie stall and test my reactions for the Nightmare Before Xmas toys! *hUmpf* No fair. I'll get back at ya! U'll see!~
But still.... Happy 1 year! 1 year~! Love the memories! Love the 1st day actions and reactions. Haha~... Cute!~ *mUackz*
Okee.. Now for the serious stuffs. Got back results. I'm reallllllllllly disappointed in my results. But the weird thing is, i did better in the subjects that i thought i would do badly. Maybe i concentrated too much in those subjects and compromised my performance in the subjects that i thought i would surely do well in. Maths!!! Argh!!! Can't believe that i got a B for it. Damn those Stats! Argh..... GPA dropped but still quite satisfied with it.
**Hey classmates! Thought of which IS class to enrole in? I've no opinion cuz all choices seem quite blah to me. Lolz... Inform me about the choices before enrolement date k! Please? = )
Oh ya~! Tournament. Erm...... Let's be humble about it. Hm.. I would say I'm satisfied by how i played that day. Robz said i played well. Though my opponent noticed my weak forehand and slightly stronger backhand, I still waited for my chances and went for winner shots at the appropriate time. I was quite amazed that it worked! Haha... I guess patience and smart playing is really important in tennis. But at least i'd learnt something out of the match. I knew what i needed to work on, which is to chalk up on my match play experience. I need to learn how to manage the big points. My building up is good. But i need to work on how to close the point. Hey! At least i know my groundstrokes aren't that bad after all! Heh heh. I was serving okay that night. Only 1 double fault. Return of serves was good! Smacked some angle shots. Opponent couldn't reach some. Amazing huh? Most winners are forehand winners. Even more miraculous huh? Lolz... Considering how wobbly my forehand is. Haha... It's weird. But i really enjoyed the match. Learnt so much. Can't wait to play tennis now. Haha....= P Must get ready for IVP in mid Nov. Sylvia!!! Where are u?!!?
K.. enough for 1 night.
Hope to see everyone soon!~
xoxo Ei Leen xoxo
But i'm quite happy on how i spent my holidays. I've learnt how to manage my time well between my family, Kare and well...maybe not my friends. But i'm trying! I still have a date with Alicia and Xia. Maybe swimming or dinner... Suppose to meet Celeste, Lynette, Von and Liyana... but some couldn't make it. So it was cancelled. Hope we can still arrange a time to get together. Really miss all of them. *Sigh*
Well, at least i managed to spend quality time with my dear mum. Really enjoyed the time spent with her. I really did enjoy her company. = ) We didn't have to do much. Just ate lunch, tea snacks together, shopping... going to her favourite shops, trying clothes and stuffs. It was actually quite... comforting, i would say. Why? Becuz i think i feel that i'm much closer to her now after that dramatic episode. Though sometimes there're disagreements, but hey, who said life was without ups and downs? She's still my mum after all.. Love ya, Mummy! *Heeee* = D
Kare! We still have so much to do together! So much things to complete before holiday ends. Thanx for the soft toys! Was really a great surprise! You really pulled off tricks very well! Still can't believe that you tricked me into that movie stall and test my reactions for the Nightmare Before Xmas toys! *hUmpf* No fair. I'll get back at ya! U'll see!~
But still.... Happy 1 year! 1 year~! Love the memories! Love the 1st day actions and reactions. Haha~... Cute!~ *mUackz*
Okee.. Now for the serious stuffs. Got back results. I'm reallllllllllly disappointed in my results. But the weird thing is, i did better in the subjects that i thought i would do badly. Maybe i concentrated too much in those subjects and compromised my performance in the subjects that i thought i would surely do well in. Maths!!! Argh!!! Can't believe that i got a B for it. Damn those Stats! Argh..... GPA dropped but still quite satisfied with it.
**Hey classmates! Thought of which IS class to enrole in? I've no opinion cuz all choices seem quite blah to me. Lolz... Inform me about the choices before enrolement date k! Please? = )
Oh ya~! Tournament. Erm...... Let's be humble about it. Hm.. I would say I'm satisfied by how i played that day. Robz said i played well. Though my opponent noticed my weak forehand and slightly stronger backhand, I still waited for my chances and went for winner shots at the appropriate time. I was quite amazed that it worked! Haha... I guess patience and smart playing is really important in tennis. But at least i'd learnt something out of the match. I knew what i needed to work on, which is to chalk up on my match play experience. I need to learn how to manage the big points. My building up is good. But i need to work on how to close the point. Hey! At least i know my groundstrokes aren't that bad after all! Heh heh. I was serving okay that night. Only 1 double fault. Return of serves was good! Smacked some angle shots. Opponent couldn't reach some. Amazing huh? Most winners are forehand winners. Even more miraculous huh? Lolz... Considering how wobbly my forehand is. Haha... It's weird. But i really enjoyed the match. Learnt so much. Can't wait to play tennis now. Haha....= P Must get ready for IVP in mid Nov. Sylvia!!! Where are u?!!?
K.. enough for 1 night.
Hope to see everyone soon!~
xoxo Ei Leen xoxo
Friday, September 30, 2005
uh oh..
Super worried. Super nervous.
Positive thinking... Positive thinking... Positive thinking... Positive thinking...
xoxo Ei Leen xoxo
Positive thinking... Positive thinking... Positive thinking... Positive thinking...
xoxo Ei Leen xoxo
Saturday, September 17, 2005
I'm Freeeeeeeee~~~!!!
Yea.. I'm free.. Free from exams. At least for about 2 months anyway. = ) It's been a long time since i've blogged. I mean, don't blame ME.. Blame the damn difficult modules i have to take during year 2. Exam was done quite smoothly. I mean, err... i'm quite happy with how i did for the papers. Except for AMB i guess. The notes are really useless lo. I think they should rewrite the notes for AMB. I mean, 60% of what came out for the paper is not found in the notes. Then how would we, the students know how to answer when we don't even know what was it about? Okeeee... Maybe i'm exaggerating, but hey? It's feedback right? I still think they should improve on the AMB notes.
Holidays are here! My goals for this holiday are
- To go for driving lessons and hope to get my license soon
- Play well in my tournament
- Spend more time with Mum
- Spend more time with Robz
- Read more books!
My papa only allows me to drive HIS car if i get a license from UBI. Yes. In other words, i cannot drive his car if i graduate from AMK, or bukit batok, or some other places. Why? Because the most skilful drivers come from Ubi. Lolz. Why? Because of the traffic and the roads at Ubi. Lolz. Haiz. He's restricting me lo... But hey, i would rather be a more skilful driver yar? But i still can't imagine myself DRIVING. I mean, the car is so biggggg... And the driver's seat is at the right hand side. The biggest fear i guess would be i can't judge the left hand side. Why can't they just invent cars with a central driver seat? So that the driver can estimate the EQUAL space of the left and right hand side?
Am reading Dan Brown's Angels and Demons currently. His books are so... extraordinary! Really enjoy reading his books. Read The Da Vinci Code already. Which made me think that Dan Brown's really creative! I mean, it's really quite a feat to link everything together. It's really a highly recommended book. Yea, like what Robz said, it's something like a pagan's book, but hey. I really think there's no harm reading any kind of book. If it's interesting and keeps sucking me into the book, then it IS a good book. When i read Angels and Demons, it really kind of enlightened me. For those of you whom already read the book, i don't think you guys really took notice on this 1 and 1/2 pages. i'm gonna repeat it here cuz i really think it touched a raw nerve in me.
Chartrand (Ch): A security guard, Camerlengo (C): Right hand man for the Pope
Ch asked C, 'The Bible describes God as a omnipotent and benevolent deity.'
* Omnipotent- benevolent means God is all powerful and well-being.
But Ch says there's a contradiction because if God is powerful AND well being, then why would there be pain, sufferings, human tragedies, sickness.. etc. Human tragedy seems like proof that God cannot be powerful and well being at the same time. If He loves us and has the POWER to change our situation, He would prevent our pain, wouldn't He?
C frowned, 'Would He?'
Ch says,' Well, if He loves us, He can protect us. He would have to. It seems He is either omnipotent and uncaring, or benevolent and powerless to help.'
*Ahh.. this is the part were it gets enlightening. I admit, this is one question that's been bugging me about Him, and i never would have thought that my answer would be answered by this book. Lolz.
Camerlengo asked,' Do you have children?'
C said no. C says, ' Imagine you have an 8 yr old boy, would you love him?
'Yeaaa.. Of cuz.'
'Would you do everything in your power to prevent pain in his life?'
'Of cuz.'
'Would you let him skateboard?'
*Haha, this question surprised me. Imagine a camerlengo asking a security guard this question. Lolz... it cracks me up...= D
'Yea, i guess. Sure, i'd let him. But i'd tell him to be careful.'
'So as this child's father, you would give him good, basic advice and then let him go and make his own mistakes?'
'I wouldn't run behind him and mollycuddle him, if that's what you mean.'
'But what if he fell and skinned his knee?'
'Then he would have to learn to be more careful.'
' o, although you have the POWER to interfere and prevent your child's pain, you would choose to show your love by letting him learn his own lessons?'
'Of cuz, pain is part of growing up. It's how we learn.'
'Exactly.'
So... what dayya all think? Cool eh? It's so simple yet has such a deep meaning. By this time, i was thinking. Hey! God is kinda Great eh? Well... Ok. He IS Great. Lolz. He's like a parent to us all and we're his children. He loves us. I mean, hey. If we didn't have exams, how would we know to treasure our holidays? Yeayeayea, now i know how precious holidays are to me. Haha... Yea well. I guess if we didn't fall down and skinned our knees, we'll never know how pain felt like and we'll never know how to be careful. Reflect on this.
Hmm... Yup. So i guess everyone should at least read 1 Dan Brown's book. Lol. I sound like i'm marketing his books. But noooo, maybe we can all learn something from his books. I know i know. Some of u guys are not allowed to read these kind of books. But hey, i really really think there's no harm in reading it. It's just a book. Papers filled with words. Isn't it like reading textbooks?
Ohoh.. There's another thing that bugs me... No offence k! Really no offence!!! I don't wanna get in trouble with the law yea?
Err.. Those Christians, Catholics and Muslims right? For those that are studying science..... Won't you all be learning about evolution and all these contradicting subjects that contradicts the Bible and the .... er... Islam religion?
Eh....i don't knoww........It's just a harmless question.....
I miss Robz........ Why must he goooooooooooo!??!?!?!
Argh... Miss him lots...
xoxo Ei Leen xoxo
Thursday, September 08, 2005
Hugz~
We used to long for each other's hugs
Treasuring every precious hug
Treating each hug like a precious gem
I still long for it very much
But how come i feel that you don't feel the same as me anymore?
xoxo Ei Leen xoxo
Tuesday, August 23, 2005
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Time to wake up!!!
Mymy! It's the 2nd last week of school already. Another week would be all my practical exams. Haven't study for it yet. I hope i'll get to it soon enough. Time passes so fast. This 2 month long holidays will be my last long holiday i have in NP. Then it would be 3rd year projects and attachments. Argh....
Exams are starting in about 3 weeks time. Gonna have my exams on consecutive days which is so wrong and so packed. IMM after HGD. My gawd. I should just crush all my papers into marche and eat them up for dinner and breakfast. How?! I somehow knew that i would do quite badly for this sem. I am so dead.
Kare! Help me... Ohoh.. Special thanx to Kare for the sweet surprises and er..thoughtful thoughts. *hUgz*
Kare~~ Rmb it's around this time that we got to know each other? Really brought back alot of memories... Wanna hold your uneven hands! Heh heh..~ Only wwanna hold yours....
Lol. Just as i'm typing this, waiting for Kare to finish his lessons, Yu Xiu my primary school friend was just sitting across from me and i couldn't recognise her. Haha! I didn't even know. Stupid blur me. Saw Junwei too. Maybe couldn't recognise cuz they're wearing formal clothes. Still can accept the fact that Junwei and Robz are good friends. Er.. Always play games and hang out together. Such an irony! ?______?
Oh yar. Yanxia trying to gather all 1M05 people to go Sentosa after exams! I suggest the friday after the exam week.. Which i think should be around 16? Not sure. Tentatively should be that fri since most of us finish exams on Wed. But nowadays keep raining leh.... So cold and gloomy. = ( But very nice weather to sleep tho. Hahaa...
Pam~~ I still don't get to see u around nowadays! Haha... Good luck for exams k. *hUgz*
To Alicia, YX, KC~~ Good luck k! Do well...
To everybody else~~ Good luck.... Sleep well, rest well...
xoxo Ei Leen xoxo
Mymy! It's the 2nd last week of school already. Another week would be all my practical exams. Haven't study for it yet. I hope i'll get to it soon enough. Time passes so fast. This 2 month long holidays will be my last long holiday i have in NP. Then it would be 3rd year projects and attachments. Argh....
Exams are starting in about 3 weeks time. Gonna have my exams on consecutive days which is so wrong and so packed. IMM after HGD. My gawd. I should just crush all my papers into marche and eat them up for dinner and breakfast. How?! I somehow knew that i would do quite badly for this sem. I am so dead.
Kare! Help me... Ohoh.. Special thanx to Kare for the sweet surprises and er..thoughtful thoughts. *hUgz*
Kare~~ Rmb it's around this time that we got to know each other? Really brought back alot of memories... Wanna hold your uneven hands! Heh heh..~ Only wwanna hold yours....
Lol. Just as i'm typing this, waiting for Kare to finish his lessons, Yu Xiu my primary school friend was just sitting across from me and i couldn't recognise her. Haha! I didn't even know. Stupid blur me. Saw Junwei too. Maybe couldn't recognise cuz they're wearing formal clothes. Still can accept the fact that Junwei and Robz are good friends. Er.. Always play games and hang out together. Such an irony! ?______?
Oh yar. Yanxia trying to gather all 1M05 people to go Sentosa after exams! I suggest the friday after the exam week.. Which i think should be around 16? Not sure. Tentatively should be that fri since most of us finish exams on Wed. But nowadays keep raining leh.... So cold and gloomy. = ( But very nice weather to sleep tho. Hahaa...
Pam~~ I still don't get to see u around nowadays! Haha... Good luck for exams k. *hUgz*
To Alicia, YX, KC~~ Good luck k! Do well...
To everybody else~~ Good luck.... Sleep well, rest well...
xoxo Ei Leen xoxo
Wednesday, August 10, 2005
Weird Moi...
Happy 10th month to me and Kare... Had a good day with him but i did naughty things. Haha..! Ah ah.. Don't think dirty things.. I juz skipped Maths lecture ( which is a super difficult thing to decide since Mrs Chan has such sharp eyes! She knows who is absent, every single one) . And i managed to dodge from Kai ngan so that i can't lend him my lappi. Oops~! Lolz.. But it's alright. Everything was good. Rented the vcds Robz wanted to watch, namely It and Happy Gilmore. Juz that i missed my fireworks festival at Esplanade cuz it starts at 11pm. Why so late!!!! Argh... But then, i thought i could catch another fireworks display on tues.
But...Nah... Didn't catch it yesterday either. Thought i could go blading in ther evening and see sunset and then go bridge in time to see my fireworks. But nope. It all didn't happen. I was imaginging this whole scene since last week. Of cuz i'm disappointed that it didn't happen. I was anticipating it the whole last week... But... oh well... i guess it just didn't meant to happen my way.
Anyway, all that happened was that Robz relatives came over and had a party. So... it was not nice to snatch him away to go see fireworks, i guess. So..yar.. stayed there with his aunts and cousins till about 9 and went home. Of cuz i'm sad. I won't deny it. But the weird thing was that i pretended to be alright. So why didn't i make my sadness known?Oh well, it was just meant to be. He owes moi.
xoxo Ei Leen xoxo
But...Nah... Didn't catch it yesterday either. Thought i could go blading in ther evening and see sunset and then go bridge in time to see my fireworks. But nope. It all didn't happen. I was imaginging this whole scene since last week. Of cuz i'm disappointed that it didn't happen. I was anticipating it the whole last week... But... oh well... i guess it just didn't meant to happen my way.
Anyway, all that happened was that Robz relatives came over and had a party. So... it was not nice to snatch him away to go see fireworks, i guess. So..yar.. stayed there with his aunts and cousins till about 9 and went home. Of cuz i'm sad. I won't deny it. But the weird thing was that i pretended to be alright. So why didn't i make my sadness known?Oh well, it was just meant to be. He owes moi.
xoxo Ei Leen xoxo
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