Thank you for coming back

I'm too kind. Why am i always the one who suffer the most in the end. I'm always taking the backseat.

Need you. Not only wanting you. NEED.

Am I selfish, by asking you to be by my side?

Oh!...My new baby!

= ))

Thanks to all!

Coffee is bad

Saw this in a coffeeshop today.

Drink coffee: If you want to do stupid things faster with higher energy.

That's why I don't drink coffee.

Give me some ideas..

What am I to do?

where is it?

Where's the feeling of numbness?

I'm waiting for it to set in....

You perk me up

Now, I carry a little reminder of you everyday (almost everyday anyway)... = )

Massimo Dutti

All over again

I think we're crazy to do this all over again.


Lots of people asked, 'So? Now it's your turn to wait?' And my reply is, 'No, it's my turn to earn money.'


Yes, technically, I'm waiting. And I've to admit that it's not a short period of waiting. 3 YEARS! 3 freaking years. Eeks... The thought of it makes me feel old. 3 years later, I'm going to be 26. That's old. Will he still want me after seeing that I've grown older/more wrinkles, especially not seeing me for a year? and the year after that? And the year after that?


The uncertainty of it really scares me.


And of course, missing his presence, his physical presence. The real physical hug which never fails to comforts me.


I think if I really miss his hugz, I would head to his house and look for Ranger. We would understand each other as we have a common person which we miss the most.





xoxo Ei Leen xoxo

You BAS**** PERVERT!

I promise you. The next time I see you, if I EVER SEE you again (!!)...

1. I'll claw your eyes until you realise that what you're doing is freaking PERVERTIC!!!
2. Gouge your eyes OUT! So that you'll never see again.
3. Give you several knuckle sandwiches to knock some sense into you
4. Destroy your STUPID CAMERA PHONE

I hope that you're hoping not to run into me again, you BAST***!!!!!

I seriously hope you go to HELL!...

!@%%%!$%!%#$%#%#$%

Why does it have to be so hard?

How did it ever become so complicated?

Well, it recently dawned on me that I may have lost my best friend.

I'm famous

wahaaha.... I'm famous!... In OZ that is.... still relatively unknown in sg...

Go google and type: ei leen leong liz butt...

So many articles.. some even translated in chinese...

And apparantly, i'm a PhD student too.. lol...

xoxo Ei Leen xoxo

At crossroads

what should i pursue?

Have i lost my direction?

xoxo Ei Leen xoxo

xoxo Ei Leen xoxo

disappointed.

very disappointed.

Uprooting

up⋅root [uhp-root, -root] ----

to displace, as from a home or country; tear away, as from customs or a way of life

Leaving things behind.

Only left with memories.

There can never be beginnings when there are no ends.

Things will always come to an end. Someday.

Only memories.

xoxo Ei Leen xoxo

Baby Leah

Baby Leah McPherson Chye Jin (Born May 22nd, 2009)

Introducing my gorgeous cousin and beautiful niece (so tempting to get a caucasian husband!)
2nd Aunt with Baby Leah

I'm getting old. I've proceeded to the next stage of life where my cousins (same generation!) are becoming parents! Gosh... that means... i'm almost next in lineeeee...

xoxo Ei Leen xoxo

Go away. I don't want this

NONONONONO... Go away

I don't want you to care for me like this. I feel suffocated. GO AWAY!

I DON'T NEED YOUR CARE AND CONCERN LIKE THIS. Do THIS to SOMEBODY ELSE. KEEP AWAY FROM ME.

WHY DON'T YOU EVER (EVER!!!!) UNDERSTAND?!?!?! I HATE IT WHEN YOU DO THIS. HATE IT. LOATHE IT.

Don't think that you know what is best for me. I don't like it when you care for me like this. I HATE IT. PLEASE KEEP YOUR DISTANCE.

ROARS!!!!!

Thank you Lord

Let me start with a word of prayer.

Thank you Lord, for you have provided much strength and wisdom to me for the last 3 months, that i'm able to complete my thesis and experiments in time. Thank you for blessing me with great friends (Robz, Alicia, Jess, Liz, Jereme, Erica, Curtis, Nick, Boi, Glenn, Simon, Aaron, Pearlyn, Wayne, Derek, Ria and many more) who have supported me, giving me encouragements, prepared my meals.. Thank you Lord, that you have blessed me with them, that i may complete my honours year smoothly. In Jesus' name, i pray. Amen.

Gosh...! I finally submitted my thesis. It only dawned unto me 5 hours after i submitted my thesis at the office before i felt any relief. I think my stress hormones were at an all time high that i needed that long to finally realised i'm almost done. I'm left with my presentation on 28th May and i'll be done with my honours. Can't wait, but i seriously dread the Q and A.

Honours year has been a great learning experience. I really needed to dig up all my passion and desires for the love of research to drive and spur me to go through this honours project. And i did have fun! Of course, that is with the help of my labmates and supervisor who never fail to accompany me when i'm doing experiments and with the much-dreaded writing of thesis. I still love research... It's great to discover God's work. = ) To me.. Science and religion work in parallel. They just speak in a different language. It's so amazing to discover the works of God.

Oh... And i really want to apologise to those around me who have seen my grouchiness when i'm super tired. I'm really sorry if i have neglected to care for you guys when you people were having assignments due and exams to sit for, and i forgot or i didn't give you much encouragemments to go on. I apologise if i seemed to have gone into my own research world and forgot about you guys. And i also apologise for my behaviour if i have been really eccentric and don't seem to care about you guys when i was really busy with my work. Especially to kare, who had to endure my 'crap' for the past.... 3 months. (I love you, thank you for being so patient and understanding) I apologise once again and thank you all, for being so patient and understanding with me. You know who you are.

It's funny how your mind is able to control the body. I know i was going to fall sick somehow, some day. And i knew that my immune system was really low last week. But, i forced myself to think that i am well, drank tons of water and spurred myself to go on until i submit my thesis. I didn't fall ill, but i could feel my body was weak. Now that i've weathered the storm, and i'm 'allowed' to fall sick, the next thing i knew... Why are my eyes, lips and neck radiating heat?? ARGH! Fever.

Another good example of how strong the mind is, over the flesh. This was reported in the science world (i don't think it's published in the news though, because it might cause too much controversy). There was a man who was diagnosed with lung cancer and the doctor told him he had only 6 months to live. 6 months later, the man died. But when the coroner did an autopsy on the man, he did not die of lung cancer, nor any cancer of sorts. See how strong the mind is? This was told by my supervisor as our lab is researching on the effects of stress. Stress can do harm to the body in many ways... may it be psychologically or physically. He reckons the patient died of stress, as well as being depressed due to the bad news. It's a wonder how strong the mind can be.

Now that honours is almost over, i still have other things to stress. What now???.. After my honours year... Another major decision to make. Another stage of life to proceed.... decisions....why can't someone just decide for me?

Dear Lord, I pray that you'll give me much-needed wisdom to make these important decisions.

xoxo Ei Leen xoxo